Prologue
I was plunged into the abyss, a hostile environment that ate away at my very humanity. In there, I had to reforge myself in order to survive. The only way I could live was by utterly destroying any obstacles on the path to my goal. I convinced myself that it would be okay to turn into a monster if that was what it took to survive, to make it home. And honestly, that was the only way I could keep my sanity in that hell. I was sure that if I didn’t go that far, I’d stumble along the way and be consumed by the horrors of the abyss.
When I found you, Yue, I was on the brink of going past the point of no return. It was thanks to you that I was able to cling to my humanity. It was thanks to you that I was able to remain someone my family wouldn’t be ashamed to see come home.
Without you, I wouldn’t have gotten this strong or found so many people I genuinely care about. So how can I possibly repay you for everything you’ve done for me? I’m sure you’d say all you need is for me to be by your side, but that’s not nearly enough.
I don’t know what else I can do for you, but at the very least, I’ll fulfill my promise. We’re going back home, together. I still remember how sad you looked that day when you told me you had no home to return to, so I’ll give you one. Don’t worry. I know you’re afraid my parents won’t like you, but I promise mom and dad will be overjoyed to meet you.
Wait for me Yue, my beloved vampire princess. I’m coming to rescue you.
When I was trapped in the abyss, I tried my hardest to become a cold, unfeeling doll. I killed my emotions and surrendered myself to the darkness. If I was doomed to be trapped there for all eternity, I thought I would be better off dead. For a time, I gave up on living. But even as I tried to surrender to my fate, I couldn’t help but hold on to one last sliver of hope.
When you opened that door, Hajime, I thought for the first time in so very long that I wanted to live. One look at you got my blood pumping again, and I could hear my heartbeat again, a sound I thought I had all but forgotten. It was then that I realized I’d been lying to myself all along.
You didn’t just set me free. You pulled me out of the swamp of despair and brought me into the light. You healed my soul, which had been scarred by betrayal, and restored my humanity.
Without you, I wouldn’t have become this strong or found so many people I genuinely care about. So how can I possibly repay you for everything you’ve done for me? I’m sure you’d say all you need is for me to be by your side, but that’s not nearly enough.
That’s why I’m not going to let Ehit beat me. Even if my consciousness is trapped in darkness and I can’t even sense my own body anymore, I won’t give up.
I still need to see what the home you long so deeply for is like. I need to know what your parents—the reason you’re trying so hard to get back—are like.
You told me there aren’t any other races in your world, so will they be accepting of a vampire like me? Even if they aren’t, just thinking about spending the rest of my life with you and your family fills my heart with excitement. It reminds me that I’m still here, still alive.
Hajime, I love you more than anything else in the world. I’ll wait as long as it takes because I know you’ll come and sweep away this darkness for me.
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