Chapter 615: Introspection
During these days, Zhang Tie would stand on the top of the mountain and watch those people in the town busy doing their own works and starting their new lives everyday . After experiencing so many things, Zhang Tie found that he had recovered his composure completely when he saw those commoners living a happy life . Meanwhile, he would introspect and think about too many things .
After experiencing a life or death test, Zhang Tie instinctively started to think about many things .
'What's the meaning of coming to the Selnes Theater of Operations?'
'Why would I be framed by Three-eye Association once again?'
'What's the reason for me this time to survive on?'
Many questions flashed across Zhang Tie's mind . . .
Although these questions seemed to be simple, after reconsidering them and facing his inner heart, Zhang Tie realized that he was still confused about many of them .
Whether he was here to improve his fighting strength, for the sake of Lan Yunxi, or out of his responsibility and honor as a human fighter, Zhang Tie had never been regretful about coming to Selnes Theater of Operations .
What made Zhang Tie start to introspect and review himself was his new recognition about this world .
Neither had he seen through himself nor his opponent . That was why he fell into the hands of Senel Clan .
After being rewarded with the honor of Selnes Eagle, although he looked calm, even unsatisfied, but actually, he was pleased about having such an honor . This honor made him feel being different than others and being able to do more things . Because of this honor, he started to lose himself and finally entered the dilemma .
'To the final analysis, when I was rewarded with this honor, I forgot that I was not the same poor teenager in Blackhot City who would like to be the human flesh bag for a few silver coins a day anymore . '
'I am already not that teenager anymore on any aspect . That lifestyle has been far away from me . I would never return to that lifestyle . However, the deep-rooted memory and life experience in Blackhot City over 10 years ago deeply impressed me with a mindset . Being influenced by that mindset, I would always try to recognize and observe this world through a special "window" . '
'When I see outside through that window, I feel the honor of Selnes Eagle is ground-breaking and deserve being defended!'
'When I see inside through that window, I feel a LV 9 fighter who has formed an iron-blood battle qi is unrivaled . '
'That's really ridiculous!'
'Because of the first recognition, I entered the huge and complex den of the allied human forces which must have contained a lot of dark forces and was finally framed by Three-eye Association so easily . '
'Because of the second recognition, I always had a fluke mind and didn't prioritize improving my fighting strength and level; instead, I always had a thought of "let it be" . Because of this fluke mind, I lost my advantage in front of opponents above LV 11 and lost my ability to resist the conspiracy of Senel Clan . '
'After being rewarded with the honor of Selnes Eagle and scaring away the pursuers of Lan Yunxi, if I tried my best to improve my fighting strength and became a bit low-key, even though I would have to leave Selnes Theater of Operations temporarily and get a secret cultivation knowledge to breakthrough LV 11 or LV 12 before coming back, I would not have entered the dilemma . '
'If a low-end secret knowledge could be bought in the illegal demon hunters' market in Selnes Theater of Operations, of course, I could get one from other places . As long as I would like to trade a "Robust Ox Skill" with 100,000 vials of all-purpose medicament when I come back to Jinyun Country or Ice and Snow Wilderness, even in Norman Empire, someone would put it in my hand soon after I released the news . '
'Why didn't I do that?"
'To be honest, I didn't put this thing in the first place . I had too many fluke minds and excuses . Subconsciously, I became a bit pleasant about owning the fighting strength as a LV 9 fighter . '
'The cruel fact was that I had to pay a great price for my own mistakes . '
'Besides not having figured out my advantages and essence of problems, I even lacked alertness to Three-eye Association . I'm really stupid!'
'The assassination in Dragon Cave, moles of Three-eye Association in Huaiyuan Palace, disaster in Ice and Snow Wilderness, bomb assassination in Mocco City and Three-eye Association killers' lurk in illegal demon hunters' market . Three-eye Association has already shown its great penetrating and controlling the ability to human society from all aspects based on demon's organizations and its hidden huge resources . As I have been assassinated by Three-eye Association 3 times, how could I not doubt it when I accepted the task from the alliance command? That's unforgivable!'
'In Waii Sub-continent, Three-eye Association's force had penetrated in human countries and organizations so much . The bomb assassination happened when the alliance command was going to reward me with the honor of Selnes Eagle . However, the alliance command which was responsible for investigating this case didn't figure out the culprit at all . This should have reminded me that someone in the alliance command might be the moles of the Three-eye Association . However, I didn't become alert about the alliance command at that moment . '
'If I was a bit smarter, I should have ended up the relationship between me and the alliance command at that moment and ignore all the orders and requests of the alliance command . Pitifully, I didn't . To the final analysis, I was viewing the alliance command as a huge body which was full of authority and sense of justice from the viewpoint of a small figure and instinctively refused to believe that a place that represented the hope of Waii Sub-continent could hide the moles of Three-eye Association . '
'Small figures always craved for the authoritative and righteous place . They always believed that the more superior the place was, the righteous it would be . How innocent small figures! However, Three-eye Association was excelled at hiding in the sunniest place to do the darkest things . They labeled evil as holiness and disguised ugliness as justice . '
'I made the same mistakes that all the other small figures would make . '
'The crisis in the illegal demon hunters market indicates that the force of Three-eye Association might have exceeded too much in Selnes Theater of Operations . Therefore, they could arrange a timely attack . That was a life-or-death crisis, which exposed many problems in Selnes Theater of Operations and implied me that a LV 9 fighter was not safe over there . Pitifully, after obtaining the "King Roc Sutra", I was too excited to consider the warning of that crisis .
'After I drove a glider into the water so as to escape from a LV 11 wing demon's chase, Lan Yunxi had already suggested me to return to Huaiyuan Prefecture and not come back until I become LV 10 . Pitifully, I didn't follow her suggestion; instead, I stayed . '
'After recovering my composure, I realized that my reason and logic at that time was really ridiculous——as a LV 9 fighter, I should be able to stay here . I could rarely meet a LV 11 wing demon in the sky . '
'It's enough for others to be LV 9 and kill a LV 10 strong fighter with the javelin as a LV 9 fighter . However, it's far from enough for me . Because I'm not a commoner or a small figure anymore . I'm already a key person, whose choice could influence a lot of things . The problems and difficulties that I meet are much more tricky than that small figures faces . This requires me to have a greater fighting strength . '
Finally, Zhang Tie understood this . As a result, he reviewed himself and many events that he had encountered .
'Your enemy might understand their value better than you could understand yourself . '
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