Chapter 403: 403
Amaterasu froze for a second at Eva's rude greeting . She had known that Eva was quite harsh and forceful, but she didn't think it would be to the point of insulting her in such a crude way .
Amaterasu felt no anger towards her descendant . She just felt depressed deep down, and it showed on her face . However, she soon corrected her expression and stood before Eva grandly .
The two of them were the same height, with the same features, yet somehow one was looking like the epitome of holiness and femininity while the other looked wild and murderous . The contrast couldn't have been greater in this scenario .
Eva continued to sneer derisively at Amaterasu, while the Sun Goddess sighed and a mix of frustration and incomprehension started to settle in .
"Why do you fight against yourself? Why do you reject what you should truly become?" Amaterasu asked the question that had been bothering her all this while .
Eva replied lazily: "I'm not fighting against myself . I'm maintaining who I am before the efforts of a pretentious 'Goddess' who seeks to rewrite herself onto me . "
Amaterasu's face dropped at this accusation and she shook her head . "I'm not trying to do anything . It's you who is doing this to yourself . Your blood, body, and soul are rejecting who you claim to be, yearning to return to the origin . "
Eva's face contorted at this accusation . After all, she knew that Amaterasu was right in this case . The one before her wasn't a remnant consciousness of the Sun Goddess trying to take over or any cliche nonsense like that .
Amaterasu was too far above that . Her personality also strictly forbade such underhanded means in harming her own reincarnation/clone . This was a part of Eva herself trying to purge her conscious mind and return to how she should be .
Still, Eva refused to be overwritten, hence the current conflict . Amaterasu could see this, which was why she had stepped out in order to talk to Eva and help her if possible, as it would pain her to watch her second incarnation cripple herself .
However, Eva was far too… unhinged . In this state, she was quite problematic and violent, and Amaterasu knew that she would have a headache dealing with her, but it had to be done .
"Eva, why do you cling to madness? Why do you perform such horrendous acts of evil and relish them? These are things that do not coincide with the true state of your blood, body, and soul . " Amaterasu asked once again .
"I do not cling to anything . This is who I am . This is who I've become after living two lifetimes, where the first started out nice and peachy then became a living hell . " Eva answered slowly .
"Certainly not something you can understand . " Eva finished while staring into Amaterasu's eyes .
If Amaterasu had faced such a situation from her own soulmate, Lucifer… she didn't think she would have fared any better than Eva truthfully . It was far likelier that she would have committed suicide the moment her soulmate had left her in a fit of rage . . . and yet Eva had persevered .
Eva had continued with her life and had become a version of herself she thought Draco would need to overcome, thereby punishing herself with each passing day .
"I might not be able to understand the quality of the suffering you went through, but I can certainly see that the current you is flawed and improper… and I'm not the only one who thinks so . " Amaterasu stated without mincing her words . Instead, she directly hit the nail on the head and opened the can of worms Eva had kept hidden .
Eva trembled when Amaterasu finished her statement and her eyes became slightly bloodshot . "Don't you dare . . . "
Amaterasu ignored Eva's hateful glance and continued . "Your soulmate, the second-generation Lucifer, has accepted you for who you are and is okay with the current you . "
"But acceptance is not wanting or needing . Acceptance is tolerance . To accept something means one must dislike or not want the subject in question, instead choosing to take it as it was and live with it . "
"He doesn't want the current you, who kills anything she sees that crosses his lane, who always hides her beauty behind a veil, who uses a dark and evil profession to achieve her goals . In a way it be might be more correct to say that he merely tolerates the current you . "
Eva shivered badly at Amaterasu's words, as the Sun Goddess had pried out Eva's biggest fear and insecurity that had been buried in the depths of her psyche . It was something Eva was desperate to forget and never consider, but now she was forced to .
Eva knew that her current self wasn't perfect, far from it . She had many problems, liker her over-reliance on Draco, her heart and mind both of which were colder than the Devil himself, and a face always hidden in shadow, that should be in the light .
A Celestial Maiden that hid her face and refused to accept the adoration of all mortals . A Goddess of Light whose heart and mind were darker than the blackest night . An Abyssal Gatekeeper that could not even control the whisperings in her mind . Everything she currently was contradicted who she ideally should be .
Eva knew much more about her bloodline than Draco, which was only natural given their upbringing . She had access to their Lineage's library where she had read up on Amaterasu's history, even including the direct writings Amaterasu had left behind .
She had learned the purpose and secrets of her own Inheritances as well as the Inheritances in general, so she understood how she got herself into her predicament . Only, Eva had hoped that she could at least control it when the time came for her to take the next step .
Clearly… life was not that sweet .
Amaterasu brutally continued . "In a relationship such as yours, the two of you are fundamentally different from Lucifer and I . We could never mate to bear offspring, and our control over our powers was never as refined as you two . Although right now you two might be 50 times weaker at your peak than we were at our weakest, you still have endless room to grow . "
"Lucifer and I were plagued with issues like our duty towards the Gerdo Galaxy, our genetic incompatibility, and our supremacy . We were not like you two, where one could not live without the other . Lucifer has done something to both of you at the last minute that he himself did not fully understand, but it led to this outcome . "
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