When Ramon was two years old, he had an injection once and while the other children were bawling their eyes out, he didn't even flinch, as if it hadn't happened at all.
When he was five years old, Ramon had fallen and hit his temple on a rock and bled, but he didn't cry and was just playing with his car when the doctor stitched up his injured forehead.
When Ramon was six years old, he fell off his bicycle and broke his leg, but he didn't cry when people around him were hustling and bustling to call an ambulance for him.
Ramon just frowned at the pain and the fact that he wasn't going to be able to ride a bike anytime soon.
When he was eight years old, Ramon got into a fight with a child who bullied him continuously, until his lips cracked and his face was bruised, but the child had to be admitted to the hospital for intensive care.
At that time, Lucas scolded him, but Ramon didn't cry. Either because of being scolded or because he suffered some injuries after fighting, not a single tear left his eyes.
At the age of twelve, Ramon was again fighting with three people at once because they were bothering Lexus. He came home with wounds all over his body and didn't say anything to Lucas or Lis about this, because they weren't at home and neither of them knew about the incident.
At the age of twenty, Ramon lost his father and also had to start learning to handle the company that Lis managed after the death of her husband to hand over to Ramon when he turned twenty-two.
Even at his father's death ceremony, Ramon received the guests calmly.
And in the years that followed Ramon lived as if he was a human being who had been programmed to endure everything and lived his days in a monotonous style.
Some intrigue in the company, dealing with fraud, or some problems that require 'special' attention from him, eventually invoked his dark side.
Killing people or getting involved in a dark organization is not a problem for Ramon nor when he is needed to act cruel and outside normal limits.
Ramon was used to it all and no longer thought it was a big matter.
Until Ramon thought that he could deal with any kind of emotion or difficult situation calmly.
That's what Ramon had in mind. That's what Ramon believed until he felt what it was like to lose something, which he had loved with all his heart, before he even had the chance to see it…
Ramon had never felt this kind of feeling, so vulnerable and fragile. An unfamiliar emotion.
He himself a few years ago probably would not have believed that the word loss had such a deep and suffocating meaning as he felt now.
How can you love something even when you're not actually touching it? See it?
But, that's what happened. That's how Ramon felt now.
The warm tears that flowed from his tired eyes and fell on the back of Hailee's hand, proved that such a thing was possible with Ramon Tordoff.
Ramon wept silently after his repeated apologies to his wife, while Hailee rubbed his head gently.
"There's nothing to apologize for, Ramon… it's not your fault…" Hailee said softly. "This is not your fault…"
Just like Ramon, those were the only words Hailee could tell him. Because right now, she doesn't even know how to deal with this situation.
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