Chapter 78
Translator: CasBrin
I ran down the corridor . I moved my body forward, keeping to rhythm, each step a leap . I ran past a worried maid who yelled after me ‘That’s dangerous- young miss!’ but that wasn’t enough to stop me .
Feeling this way, I was helpless .
Inside my chest pathetic thoughts spun around and round . Emotions bubbling up with no outlet just like when I hid from Charles .
When I thought about that time, the solution came easily .
I just need to say it . I just need to listen . I just need to clearly say my thoughts . All the things I’ve kept in my heart, I just have to throw them out there, and maybe they will catch them .
However, I’m not that confident I can actually carry it out .
“Urgh……!”
I want to let out a loud scream . But I scolded myself for trying to take such an easy way out . Another part of me violently responded, ‘then what else should I do then’ .
Suppressing all the chaotic thoughts as they were too much, I arrived at Michelie’s room . Without even pausing to knock, I threw open the door .
Keeping my momentum I ran and hugged my little sister who has been reading quietly until now .
‘Michelie!”
“Wha- Big Sister?”
Michelie was surprised at my attack, but didn’t dislike it in the slightest . Without resisting my hug at all, she just tilted her head slightly, as if this was the normal hug .
“All of a sudden, what’s wrong?”
“Mm . Just give me a sec . ”
I held my cute little sister as close as I could for a moment . Feeling Michelie’s warmth, my heart calmed a little .
For a moment I dreamed I could stay here forever, but today that was no good . Today I didn’t come here to be healed by Michelie .
That’s why I reluctantly pulled away from our embrace, I earnestly looked into Michelie blue eyes .
“Michelie . Please scold this useless older sister . ”
“Eh? All of a sudden, what’s wrong Big Sister?”
In response to my serious request, the same words she had said when I first jumped on her, now had a slightly different meaning .
Michelie’s blank look, was the face of someone who had absolutely no idea what was going on around her . Certainly, most people would be shocked, being asked such a thing out of the blue . But, I really wanted Michelie to do this for me .
“It’s fine so, without asking why, just scold this no good sister of yours . With the strongest words you have, push me forward!”
I was currently driven by the intense urge to be punished . So I wanted to be scolded . I had thought of asking Father, but when Father admonishes me I just automatically rebel, so I scraped that plan .
Maybe if Michelie sent me a ‘tsk!’ my feelings would calm down . If my most beloved sister could scrape out my weak self, then with all my power I can challenge Mariwa .
“Please Michelie . ”
“Um well… . okay” I guess I understand, for now anyway . ”
Michelie was a child who well understood people’s emotions . Even without knowing all the details, she understood my enthusiasm . Taking a step back, when Michelie looked into my eyes she didn’t look at all confused .
“Big Sister . ”
As she said my name gently Michelie reached her hand towards my head .
Aaah . I hadn’t expected her to go for a beating straight off . But it was convenient . If it was hit like how mariwa does, surely my body would wake up .
Michelie’s hand landed on my head as I waited expectantly .
Rather than a punishing harsh fist, an accepting gentle palm landed on my head .
“……Eh?”
“I don’t really get it but, if it’s you Big Sister then everything will work out . ”
Stretching as high as she could, Michelie gently stroked my hair smiling from her heart .
“Michelie… . ”
“Ahaha . I feel a bit bad for doing this Big Sister, but it makes me happy . Big Sister relying on me . ”
I was going to say that this was the opposite of what I had asked for, but I stopped .
Just like how I have never harmed Michelie, Michelie has never harmed me .
Being comforted by Michelie is not a bad thing .
Though it didn’t follow my plan, I still felt my motivation returning .
“Something happened with Mariwa . yeah . Speaking of, your classes with her will come to an end soon won’t they . I see . To say goodbye like this, must feel lonely . ”
“…… . Mmm . ”
“But you know what? I know for a fact that there is nothing Big Sister can’t achieve if she tries . ”
Being consoled by my little sister, the tension finally leaves my body . As her words soak in, my heart feels relaxed .
“So, if it my Big Sister, the coolest in the world, everything will work out . ”
“… . . Yeah, that’s right . ”
Looking at Michelie smiling up at me, I confirmed what I knew from long ago .
To be worthy of my younger sister who selflessly supports me, I will stand with dignity and pride and throw away my weak self .
“I am the older sister of Michelie, the coolest in the world!”
“So cool Big Sister!”
Always single mindedly motivating me, my most beloved sister is indeed an angel .
Later I would think back upon these days .
Peaceful days I spent ignoring the fated scenario and instead chasing after daily happiness .
I was so happy then . It was surely because I was so happy that I couldn’t look ahead and think about the consequences of my actions .
What a fool I was, calling myself a genius .
However, that stupidity was just the most obvious out of many small pushes that made me become a villainess . It was then that I could see all the signs as far back as when I was thirteen, no eleven, even as a seven or nine year old… . No even before that . The groundwork that would decide my path had been laid long before the five year old me remembered my previous life . Like that, even if it was only by the heart, I was manipulated down this path . Or perhaps for a villainess like me, it was decided from the moment I was born .
But even now I don’t have any regrets .
Because I love the fate that made me like this .
All I need to do, is love the fate that was given to me .
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