Chapter 516: 516
Stop Lying to Yourself
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It was as if Lin Ruoxi’s words were digging a hole in Yang Chen’s long settled past, and the many ideas he didn’t dare touch .
“Shut up! Shut up!! How many times must I tell you for you to believe me? It’s not what you think!”
Yang Chen’s mind was like an exploded boiler—aches he had not felt for ages made him rage, and his temples began throbbing!
Yang Chen didn’t know why he was so furious, why he would yell at Lin Ruoxi uncontrollably—he didn’t want to, but all he could think about doing is exactly that!
Lin Ruoxi’s gaze became keen and cool, as if she was able to see everything through .
“Stop lying to yourself, Yang Chen . The fact is you’ve always known that you could never tell me and Seventeen apart; you believed that she and I were different only because you wanted to convince yourself, to numb yourself; you didn’t want to be the weak one in the relationship; you didn’t want to dwell in that past any longer than you already have; you tried to reinvent yourself, instead of being a pitiful wretch who was depressed because Seventeen left him… To you, I am just an excuse for you to use as painkillers for your past… You deceive yourself . In fact, everything between us began only because of Seventeen…”
Lin Ruoxi’s words were like an icy rain, falling on Yang Chen’s ears, immobilising him .
“If you could really tell Seventeen and I apart as you said, then what about Rose who knew you long ago—why isn’t she your wife, don’t you love her? Is it because she’s from an underground syndicate? Do you care about that? If you want to, would she refuse you? And Jingjing who’s already left for the United States, couldn’t you see her feelings for you? They were with you long ago, they have treated you far better than I ever have and are more suited to be your wife… a woman like me, with no understanding of relationships, who only knows work, who is disdainful and cold, and won’t even let you in the door, yet somehow you want me to be your wife… You’re aware of everything I’ve said, don’t you?
“You never wanted to let go of Seventeen, you’re only with me because of her!!!”
Body limped against the railing, Yang Chen’s face was pale, as if his soul was depleted, or had gone through a long weary battle .
Yang Chen stared blankly at the distant riverside with dim eyes, mumbling, “Ruoxi, stop it… I’m begging you… I’m begging you to stop…”
Lin Ruoxi raised her head, reached out to wipe her eyes, and smiled apologetically . “Sorry, I know this seems harsh, and you’ve done a lot for me… some of which I’ve witnessed and the others I haven’t . But I couldn’t just sit here and take anymore of it… I’ve been suppressing these doubts deep down, like a slow poison eating into me . It’s not easy for me either .
“Ever since Christen told me about Seventeen, I’ve wanted to ask you, but dare not to . I worry too about what will happen afterwards, afraid that the truth would hurt more than the lie I tell myself . But fortunately I’m stronger than I thought . And I know you won’t be beaten down by these words either .
“Maybe because I’m abroad, I don’t have as much work or people to distract me, and have more time to overthink . It happened again just now, all those many tiny reasons coming together, and you let me question you, so I said everything I’ve never said… Next time, I won’t tell you off like this . . . ”
Yang Chen remained silent, like he didn’t hear a thing .
Lin Ruoxi bit her lip . “The conference is starting soon, I should return to my seat . You don’t have to join me, if your mood is still sour . Plus, your friend must have a reason for coming here . Don’t take my words to heart, it’s just me venting my complaints . Don’t we always fight? It’s the same . At the end of the day… we have to still keep on living like usual . ”
After she finished speaking, Lin Ruoxi tidied her appearance before returning to her seat calmly . As she passed Sauron, he nodded respectfully, and she gave him a polite smile .
Everyone saw that Lin Ruoxi was returning to her seat, and a murmur arose as they wondered what had happened . After all, anyone perceptive could see that she had just cried .
Conversely, the siblings Stern and Alice were much quieter . Worried, they remained in silence as they noticed Lin Ruoxi’s state .
Lin Ruoxi didn’t care about the whispers or gazes, entering business mode quickly as she examined her documents .
Just then, the missing manager appeared before her with a flattering smile, asking softly, “Miss Lin, may we begin with the conference?”
Lin Ruoxi was caught unawares, puzzled . “Why ask me? It’s not up to me . ”
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