Oh no! After I Reincarnated, My Moms Became Son-cons! - Volume 4 - Chapter 5

Chapter 5

I walked on the street with my head down causing me to bump someone aside . I didn’t know where I was headed or if there was any point in coming out here on my own . I was just furious, very furious . A fit of anger is meaningless .

I know .

I understand that .

But I don’t have anything other than my rage right now . Rage is a meaningless thing to Castell, but it’s the only thing I possess, even though it’s absolutely meaningless . It won’t let me have my revenge, but it reminds me that Mera once lived and gives me the courage to stand before any man .

I’m not going to let Mera’s death be in vain . When I left, Mera watched me leave from behind . You want me to give up just because I could be in danger? How am I going to look her in the eye when I return if I just give up?

But who else can I ask to help me here? I don’t have anyone who’s loyal to me here . The freezing winds blew on my face, freezing my skin as I walked down the road . Nobody will stop for me . I’m alone here in humanity’s lands, just as Castell mentioned . Without the empress’s protection, I’m nobody here .

Castell’s loyalty is devoted to the empress, and so is Nier’s . The only one who can stand by my side is Luna, but she can’t help me .

I stopped in my tracks . A huge helpless and lonely feeling hit me hard, blurring my vision . I rubbed my nose . I don’t know if my nose was irritated by the cold winds outside or the hopelessness I felt in my heart . Everybody around wrapped their overcoats around themselves tightly and left like birds returning home to their respective nests . I was left standing alone in the middle of the road like a spirit that didn’t belong in this world . Nobody paid attention to me, nor did anybody care about me . I just stood there, watching them hurrying along .

I rubbed my eyes to restore my vision and took in a big breath as I quivered and looked at the tall tower in the distance . The large clock’s bronze colour glimmered below the flare . The majestic aura of the huge church echoed with the palace as if it represented the location of the leader of the spirit of the citizens . The angel with two wings on the tower looked down at the people, is if it were fondly overlooking its citizens .

The elves have never acknowledged humans as the citizens of god . They don’t even possess mana yet they pray for the blessings of god . It’s a joke to the elves . The elves worship god because god can bestow them with miracles . God can bestow them with mana, but what about humans?

Humans have never received the blessings of god, yet they consider themselves the citizens of god . Humans really will do anything to put themselves at ease .

What a joke . They believe in god, yet don’t understand god’s will .

“Your majesty . ”

A voice suddenly called out from behind . I turned my head around and saw Nier’s blank expression .

Nier looked at me calmly like she came to ask me to come home for dinner . She calmly said: “It’s getting dark . It’s dangerous for you to act alone . If you need to go out for something, please notify me . ”

I looked blankly at Nier’s unmoving expression and took in a deep breath . I then decadently sat down on a chair by the side, let out a long sigh and said: “I thought you were here to call me back . ”

“I am but just a bodyguard . I don’t care where you go . I only care about your safety . ”

Nier stood before me with her hand placed on her sword handle . Her white cape shifted slightly as the wind blew . Under the fires lighting up the road, her emerald eyes reflected the flames, but they could not cover her lifeless eyes . The flames were destined to only burn outside . How can I get Nier’s flame to light up for me?

“Nier…… I want to hear your opinion on the matter…… I…… . I…… . ”

“My opinion is to leave it to her majesty to handle . ” Nier looked at me and continued in a composed tone, “I don’t know what’s happening with the church, nor do I understand the power balance . However, I believe you to be the most powerless existence in the palace . Without her majesty’s support, it is impossible for you to do anything . ”

I smiled helplessly and then rested my chin in my hands, keeping silent for a long time .

Mera was right . Both power and determination are necessary . When I killed her, I had both determination and a sword, so I could hold her corpse . But I only have meaningless rage right now . I wanted to get to the bottom of the matter, but I couldn’t even enter the church .

“What if I still want to investigate it?”

“Then I shall investigate it with you . ”

Nier looked as calm as usual .

I placed my hands supporting my face down, looked at Nier and said: “You might die . ”

“I already told you, I don’t care where you want to go, protecting you is my duty . If you are in danger, I will definitely protect you . If you die, I will have failed in my duty, and I shall commit suicide to apologise . ” Nier looked at me casually and continued, “That is but just a suggestion . If you insist on continuing forward, I shall follow you . Or rather, I admire your courage . While courage cannot solve problems, not everybody can be courageous .   One who is courageous would be more admirable even if he were to perish . ”

I looked at Nier . Her expression didn’t change . However, I could feel that Nier’s attitude towards me had eased up a lot . Perhaps Valkyries pursue courage . Nier won’t say anything to me, but she’s always by my side to protect me . Perhaps I can put my faith in her for this month .

“Nier, what do you think I should do?”

Nier looked at me and replied: “Do what you think is right . I am not responsible for strategizing for you . I am only responsible for ensuring your safety while you do what you believe is right . ”

I looked at Nier’s gaze, smiled helplessly and said: “You’re different to Castell……”

“Well, I couldn’t ask for anything more than to see your corpse at the end of the street . ”

I chuckled and stood up . I looked at Nier, pat her on her shoulder and said: “Thank you, Nier…… I get it now . I will do what I think is right . I hope you’ll be able to protect me during this time . I think I’ll need to rely on your more in the future . ”

Nier knocked my hand away without any reluctance and said: “Yeah? I just hope that you won’t show kindness to someone who tries to kill you, and make me sheath my sword after I’ve drawn it . ”

“I won’t . ”

I turned my head around, looked at the angel overwatching us on top of the church, and clenched my teeth . Perhaps the angel statue on this side represented their so-called redemption and holiness . I’m not convinced that they have no involvement in Mera’s death . Castell didn’t tell me anything, but he did tell me the most important thing . And that is if the church is involved, it will be a complicated matter . Since it’s complicated, I’ll have to go and clear up the clue I have .

I don’t care if this is the last thing I do . I’ll bring the truth to light for Mera . I’m not backing down .

I will not back down this time . I’m determined this time .

With my back facing Nier, I sternly said: “I never will again . ”

“Understood . ”

Nier replied from behind like usual . I thought I couldn’t do anything at first, but Nier is now standing behind me . I’m not alone . When the going gets tough; when I’m most powerless and hopeless, standing behind me will be Nier’s lone, but proud silhouette .

My loneliness is despair, but Nier’s loneliness is her greatest pride .