Chapter 514
「 Now, give me your answer 」
Katsuko-nee pushes Mana and me .
I .
Mana .
「 What’s wrong? Make your decision now . You need to be fast here . If you have made your resolve, then there’s nothing to be afraid of . Now, hurry up and say it . If you don’t reach a conclusion here, later you’ll regret it forever . Now, think about it and make a judgment! 」
I can understand what Katsuko-nee’s saying .
I have to decide . I have to give an answer .
If not, it’ll be a lifetime of drag .
I’ll regret it .
Therefore .
「 I-I! 」
「 I 」
But, I don’t know what to answer .
I don’t know what’s right!!
Then .
「 Just kidding, you can’t make a conclusion as a makeshift . That’s what unscrupulous cults do 」
Katsuko-nee smiles .
WHAT?!
「 Human behavior can’t quickly be decided logically . Also, you’ll notice your internal problems unexpectedly . 」
Err .
「 Because of that, humans often say excuse for what actions they make . “Back then, that’s all the choice I had,” “There was no other way,” “Thinking about it now, there were worse situations than this,” they all add those as a postscript . In short, “I wasn’t mistaken,” or “I didn’t have any other options,” they just want to guarantee themselves 」
Y-Yeah .
「 You see, whatever you chose right now, the result will change with the actions you take in the future . It’s important to choose, but it’s also important to know what to do after making that choice 」
Katsuko-nee said .
「 Mana-chan, staying here doesn’t equate abandoning Ichikawa-san and Yukino-san . On the other hand, coming back to Ichikawa-san’s house doesn’t cut off your bond with us . That is all depending on your actions in the future . 」
That’s indeed true .
In the end, it all depends on us .
No matter what we choose .
「 Then, in addition to that, in life, you’ll be involved in factors you can’t do anything about . For example, one of the two of you may fall ill to a sudden illness . This mansion may catch fire suddenly . Ojou-sama may fail at work, and we all get arrested . The situation is always flexible . Even if you make a choice, that might not still go that way 」
I look at Mana .
Mana’s listening . Showing an earnest look .
「 Therefore, it’s just stupid to say “This must be done,” or “It has to be this way . ” It’s nonsense . If you move with that idealistic reason, then you won’t be able to respond to reality . Just like people who have been mind-controlled by cults 」
「 So, what should I do? 」
Mana speaks up .
「 I’m thinking so hard . Then, I made a conclusion 」
「 You overthink so your head boils up, and your thoughts go to the worse one . Then, you ended up with a horrible argument 」
Katsuko-nee said .
「 Kouzuki-sama has said this before: What’s most important is the inspiration1, it has the power to feel the presence of danger 」
Inspiration senses danger?
「 You see, earlier, when you heard that Mana-chan’s going back to Ichikawa-san, what did you first think? 」
Katsuko-nee asks .
「 I thought that it’s bad, I have to stop her 」
I answered honestly .
「 Oh, why? 」
「 Huh? 」
「 Well, Ichikawa-san is Mana-chan’s grandfather . He might accept Mana-chan warmly, who knows? 」
「 But still 」
「 What we know about Ichikawa-san is only one part of him . Well, he may be trying to push Yukino-san to a mental hospital but that’s a problem of Yukino-san, he might be a kind grandfather for Mana-chan 」
That might be true but .
「 You don’t believe in things like blood relationship due to how you were raised but your house was a unique case, right? It might be okay to believe in blood relationship when it comes to Mana-chan . To be honest, even during the negotiation, he showed his sympathy to his granddaughters 」
Katsuko-nee looks at me .
But .
「 But, I thought that if Mana goes to Ichikawa-san, she’ll never be happy . That it’ll be a bad end for Mana 」
Katsuko-nee .
「 That’s your inspiration . You felt “That’s dangerous” Therefore, you thought of stopping Mana-chan, isn’t that right? 」
「 Y-Yeah, I think so too 」
Mana looks at me . ,
「 Therefore, take care of that inspiration . Tell her only that sense of crisis . If you use some unneeded logic, then it’ll become ridiculous 」
Katsuko-nee looks at Mana this time .
「 Mana-chan, why do you think you have to go to Ichikawa-san’s house? 」
「 That’s 」
Mana averts her gaze .
「 Because I’m a burden to Onii-chan . Besides, there’s Yukino-oneechan’s problem too 」
「 Okay, both of them are just a reason after . It’s different from the first inspiration 」
Katsuko-nee says immediately after .
「 T-That’s! 」
Mana’s confused .
「 Then, why did you consult him when two were alone? 」
「 Huh? 」
「 If you seriously planned to leave the mansion, then you should’ve talked to Nagisa or me . Before talking to him 」
Katsuko-nee?
「 If you tell him then you know that he’ll ask you to not go, right? He won’t return Mana-chan back to Ichikawa-san 」
Huh?
「 Once he accepted someone in his family then he will pour all his love . You know that don’t’ you? He doesn’t like being abandoned by his family 」
I .
「 Even if he clings, he’ll hold onto Mana-chan . To him, Mana-chan is someone he can’t lose 」
Katsuko-nee’s words pierce my heart .
「 Yeah . I’m really disgusting . I’m so selfish, egoistic . I didn’t want to let Mana go 」
Not just Mana .
Everyone I love in my family .
「 Oh, it’s okay to be egoistic you know . On the other hand, the love you pour on your women is bottomless . Because you think you don’t want to be abandoned you are always earnest towards us, you never betray us . That is why we trust you and think it’s cute . We love you . There’s nothing improper about that 」
Then, Katsuko-nee looks at Mana once again .
「 Then, Mana-chan, you actually want him to hold you back, right? Do you want to be told that you’re needed? 」
「 I 」
「 But, if you do so, you’ll feel embarrassed about yourself, so you added some unneeded logic . Before soon, that reason will grow large, and you’ll lose knowledge of the origin of your feelings . Then, your head boils, and if you keep concluding it with logic, then it’ll become a horrible misfortune 」
Katsuko-nee looks at Mana kindly .
「 I wonder . I might’ve just wanted Onii-chan to stop me 」
Mana thinks .
「 Don’t look for answers inside yourself . Only convenient, good reasons will come up 」
Katsuko-nee tells Mana .
「 Take a good look at him . Then, the answer will come out in a moment 」
Katsuko-nee said . Mana looks at me once again .
Then .
「 Ah 」
「 What’s up, Mana? 」
I ask Mana .
「 I see, when I woke up this morning, I felt sad that Onii-chan wasn’t next to me 」
「 Huh? 」
「 When I thought that Onii-chan was sleeping over at Misuzu-san’s house, I felt sad 」
Mana .
「 Then, if I feel this sad then I thought of getting out of the mansion 」
Hey hey, what’s with that leap!
Ah, I guess that’s what the extreme logic .
「 If I go to Ichikawa-ojiichan’s house together with Yukino-oneechan, then Onii-chan can never come . If we have nights where we’re not together, then we should never have been together 」
Err .
「 I’m the one who’s selfish here! If I can’t have Onii-chan all to myself, I thought of escaping to a place where I can’t meet Onii-chan! 」
Her small shoulder is trembling .
「 My maiden’s heart can understand that 」
Katsuko-nee said .
To me, it’s just an unreasonable logic .
But .
「 Mana, come here! 」
「 Huh? 」
「 Just come here . No, I’ll do it instead! 」
I stand up from my seat and stand on my knees before Mana who’s sitting on the chair .
「 Don’t go anywhere . Just stay by my side! 」
I hug Mana’s small body tightly .
「 Onii-chan 」
Mana mutters .
「 This might not be love I have, this might be just a filthy attachment, but I don’t want to give Mana to anyone else . I want you to be mine all the time . I won’t let you go, Mana! 」
I’m the worst .
I don’t want to let go of her because of my ego .
Is that love?
Isn’t this just my selfish attachment?
「 I mentioned attachment earlier, but that is not that bad at all 」
Katsuko-nee said .
「 Relationship between people changes a lot . A husband and wife whose passion for love has vanished won’t lead to disastrous family life . They can’t make their children unhappy . Even if their love is over, some couples stay together for many years and live together as best friends . A lot maintain their family even without sex 」
There are various types of relationships .
「 Attachment is written with the kanji of ‘love’ and ‘make’ 2 」
Make love .
「 In the end, it’s always up to the person at that moment . No matter what kind of relationship it is, those who strive to be happy with their accord will become happy . Happiness is given by people, people who don’t want to do anything themselves has no choice but to be unhappy 」
Katsuko-nee .
「 At that moment, an at that moment, treasure your inspiration . Don’t overlook the signs of crisis . And, keep pursuing happiness . Take action immediately after gaining inspiration, don’t overthink . If you think, then you’ll be unable to move and end up in a situation where you can’t escape 」
Katsuko-nee looks up at the blue sky outside the window .
「 As soon as I came here, a senpai told me this: It’s probably the worst to be kidnapped and turned to a prostitute but, you can’t think about it and be depressed all the time . First, live . You must survive . Gain inspiration for that . A flash can do anything . Use your survival instincts . No matter how low it is, you must not lose the will to be happy 」
Then, to Mana;
「 What does Mana-chan’s inspiration want to do now? 」
Mana .
「 I want to stay here . I don’t want to leave Onii-chan!!!! 」
「 Then don’t leave . Stay with me! 」
I hug Mana tight, and she returns a hug as well .
「 Onii-chan, Onii-chan, Onii-chan! 」
Mana cries on my chest .
「 I want to stay with Onii-chan! But, but you see, is it okay?! Is it alright for me to stay!? 」
I .
「 There’s no good or bad; I want you to stay here, so stay . Stay with me . Stay forever . Don’t leave me 」
「 Un, okay, Onii-chan, I’ll stay forever! 」
Mana .
◇ ◇ ◇
「 Oh my, is there anything wrong? 」
Looking at the courtyard, Ruriko’s looking us through the glass door .
Edie and Agnes are with her .
「 Yeah, Mana-chan was just sad because Ruri-chan took him away last night 」
Katsuko-nee said laughing .
「 I see, I’m sorry 」
Ruriko speaks bashfully .
「 No, Ruri-oneechan did nothing wrong . It’s my fault 」
Mana wipes away her tears in a hurry .
She also parts away from me .
I knew it; she’s like Megu . She thinks of Ruriko as Kozuki faction .
I sit on a nearby chair .
「 No, I am Mana-chan’s elder sister, so I’m sorry for not noticing Mana-chan’s feelings . Let’s go together on the next occasion 」
「 Ruri-oneechan? 」
「 Misuzu-chan, Michi, and I want to get along with Mana-chan 」
「 Really? 」
Mana’s suspects .
「 Onii-sama wishes for it . Ruriko will do anything for Onii-sama 」
Ruriko smiles .
「 Then I believe you 」
It seems that Ruriko’s answer was an excellent answer .
If she answered “We’re family,” or “For the sake of the family,” then Mana will not believe Ruriko .
「 Everyone come in, I’ve prepared tea . Edie, would you like coffee? 」
Katsuko-nee invites the three girls outdoors .
Ruriko asks Edie in English .
《 OH、YES!!! 》
Edie laughs and comes inside .
「 Come, Agnes 」
I call her out .
「 Yes, desuno 」
She toddles towards me .
This 12-year-old blonde beauty is like an angel .
She’s like a pure fairy .
This small girl had sex with me yesterday .
「 American’s prefer coffee than tea after all 」
Katsuko-nee said while preparing Edie’s coffee .
「 Papa . Here 」
Agnes hands me something .
It was a four-leaf clover .
「 Oh, thanks 」
I’ve heard about this, but I never thought it existed .
「 The three of us were looking for it to give it to Onii-sama . 」
Ruriko smiles .
「 Then I have to say thanks to you three . Thanks, girls 」
I also say it in English for Edie .
「 Let’s keep it as a pressed flower 」
Mana said .
「 Yeah, you’re right 」
I don’t know much about making pressed flowers, however .
It seems Mana knows .
Then .
「 Uhm, Papa 」
Agnes comes to my knees .
「 Yes, what’s wrong? 」
Agnes big blue eyes look at me .
「 It’s about time we do it? 」
Huh?
「 Sex with Agnes 」
Err, it’s still morning though .
No, I had one round with Megu already .
「 Papa, do you hate Agnes? 」
Hey hey!
「 That’s not true . I love you, Agnes 」
「 Then 」
「 But look, there’s no need to do only sex 」
「 But, Agnes is born to have sex with Papa 」
Hmm?
Everyone pays attention to what Agnes said .
「 Agnes was told like that since I was a child 」
No, Agnes is still a child . She’s 12 right now .
「 Agnes’ body is for Papa to enjoy, once I become an adult, I need to have sex with Papa every day . If I can’t satisfy Papa, then I’ll be abandoned in a mountain . 」
Err .
「 Who told you that? 」
Mana asks .
Agnes:
「 I forgot 」
She answers with a blank face .
「 It’s the person who took care of Agnes before me . She’s Shirasaka Sousuke’s nanny 」
Katsuko-nee speaks in a dark voice .
「 She’s the only one talking to Agnes when she was young . Shirasaka Sousuke didn’t come to see her that frequently 」
Shiraska Sousuke’s nanny always told Agnes that “when you grow up, you’ll be your Papa’s sex slave” ever since she became aware .
Inside that confined basement, she’s made to masturbate three times a day while looking up at Shirasaka Sousuke’s naked image .
「 Agnes finally became an adult, so I need to have sex with Papa . If not, I’ll be thrown in the mountains 」
I hug Agnes’ small body .
「 I won’t throw you in the mountains, Agnes will be with me forever 」
「 Yes . Therefore, let’s have sex, desuno 」
Agnes .
I’ve succeeded in erasing Shirasaka Sousuke as Agnes’ center .
I overwrote Agnes’ “Papa” to me .
Therefore, Agnes trusts me, had sex with me .
But .
The teachings Agnes had for many years .
The mind control that she’s her Papa’s sex slave and that she’s only alive to have sex isn’t fixed .
「 Agnes, do you like me? 」
「 Yes, desuno! I love Papa! I love Papa now the most!! 」
Agnes said, then she clung to my chest .
Papa now .
In short, Me .
「These kinds of things need time 」
Katsuko-nee said while giving us tea .
Ruriko’s helping out .
「 Especially in Agnes-chan’s case, she’s completely blocked from the outside world, and nobody else taught her 」
Agnes didn’t even receive an Elementary education .
She’s only been watching Shriasaka Sousuke’s sex videos for the sake of becoming his toy .
「 What should I do? 」
I ask Katsuko-nee?
「 First, you have to keep Agnes-chan in an environment where she can relax . In there, we have to teach her various things bit by bit 」
An environment where Agnes could relax .
「 You need to have sex with her every day to make her feel secure for now . If not, she might think that you hate her 」
Huh?
「 In addition to that, all the sex she knows were from Shirasaka Sousuke’s videos 」
Perhaps all of it is just perverted sex .
「 That man’s addicted to sex after all 」
Agnes thinks that as normal .
「 That kind of addiction will cause a strong mental and physical shock if you refuse it suddenly . All you have to do it cut it down little by little while paying attention to the quantity 」
First, I have to lower down the level of sex Agnes thinks she should do .
The amount too .
「 For her, losing her virginity while being recorded isn’t strange . She’s only seen sex forcibly recorded after all 」
Agnes’ herself is looking at me with a blank face .
「 Papa, do you not like Agnes? Do you not want to have sex with Agnes? 」
I .
「 I said I love you . I want to have sex with Agnes of course! 」
「 I’m glad! Desuno! 」
That smile .
「 Agnes will do all her best! It’s okay even if it hurts! Please play with Agnes, Papa! 」
「 Yeah 」
I pat Agnes’ hair, and she laughed happily .
Katsuko-nee, Mana, Ruriko watches us quietly .
Agnes has a severe illness in a sense . In her heart .
I will take care of Agnes no matter how many years it takes until her heart is cured .
I’m Agnes’ Papa after all .
「 LION! 」
Edie said while sipping the coffee Katsuko-nee gave her .
Err .
「 Ruriko, Edie tells me the same thing every time she sees my face but what does she mean by that, could you ask her? 」
Repeating it so many times gets me curious . ,
「 Yes, Onii-sama 」
Ruriko asks Edie .
Then, Edie looks at me .
「 “Do you know lion, the animal?” She asks 」
Hey, don’t make fun of me . I know what lions are .
「 Far from knowing, I’ve seen one . There are lions even in Japan 」
I replied . Edie gets excited .
「 “Have you really seen one?! How is it?! Was it big?!” She asks 」
You’re the one who hasn’t seen one, Edie?!
「 The mane was this wide! 」
I tell Edie with gestures .
Edie’s eyes shine and then she nods .
Then, she talks with Ruriko for a while .
I mean, that’s a very long talk!
Edie’s getting even more excited .
「 W-What did Edie say!? 」
Ruriko?
「 No, Edie said “Where is the lion living in Japan?” she asks, so I replied “What Onii-sama saw was in the zoo . There’s no lion in Japan’s jungles” 」
Yeah, the one I saw was from the elementary school excursion .
「 Then, I said “In Japan, there are facilities where you can see lions in their territory in a safari park form,” then she said, “I want to go there” 」
So that’s why she’s excited .
「 Well, let’s go there someday 」
When Ruriko translated what I said, Edie’s eyes sparkled .
「 Let’s go there too Agnes 」
I tell Agnes who’s sitting on my knee .
「 Papa, what is a lion? 」
So that’s what she’s curious .
「 It’s a big cat . Agnes-chan, you saw the cat in the garden earlier, right? 」
Ruriko follows up .
「 Oh, a cat 」
「 Do you know what a cat is? 」
「 Yes, I see them in the skylight lying down often 」
Agnes’ world is only the skylight that pours sun into the basement .
She can see at least cats and birds .
「 How big is this cat? 」
Err .
「 As much as Katsuko-nee, I guess? 」
I don’t have anyone else to compare, so I replied as such .
「 Gao!! 」
Katsuko-nee roars! .
「 Returning to the topic, why does Edie say lion when she sees me? 」
Ruriko asks .
Then .
「 “You don’t know lion’s ecology?” She said 」
Ecology .
「 Lions are polygamous . Gao! 」
Katsuko-nee tells me .
インスピレーション 愛着
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