Pure love ✕ Insult Complex - Chapter 715

Chapter 715.: 715.
Chapter 715 . Tsukiko’s counseling sex (Part 3)

「 Margo-oneesama told me this: 」

A room with just two of us . We sit down on the bed and talk .

Tsukiko gently caresses my hands and continues her talk .

「 First experience is the most important in sex . The first experience sets the standard in sex, it becomes a benchmark 」

First sex .

「 Misuzu-sama, Ruriko-sama, and everyone else had Kou-sama as their first experience, and they don’t see a bad image in sex as a result 」

It’s the women I had sex with .

「 Naturally, that applies to Yomiko, Luna, and me . Kou-sama’s sincere and warm heart is shown through sex, and it soaks into our minds and bodies . We were a bit scared and puzzled, but after having sex with Kou-sama, we feel nothing but refreshed . It made us feel glad that we did it with Kou-sama 」

Tsukiko said .

「 As Margo-oneesama said, sex with Kou-sama is about an act of love 」

Act of love .

「 Yes, as said, an act of love wouldn’t make you feel fear from sex . 」

Minaho-neesan, Nagisa and the other seniors’ first experience were Shirasaka Sousuke raping them .

「 If our first experience were something scary then I don’t think we would be smiling as much as we do now . Maybe, we’d be trembling in fear and never want to have sex again 」

Looking at Tsukiko’s earnest face, I noticed something .

「 Tsukiko, you saw Minaho-neesan and the seniors’ past, didn’t you? 」

「 Yes, they showed me a bit of their memories in the past 」

The fear of a man raping them .

The sad and miserable look they had .

And then, their despair for the future .

「 I think that if Kou-sama hadn’t been our partner, then we would’ve gone through such a horrible experience as well . I might be able to endure it but thinking about my sisters, I feel glad that it was Kou-ama 」

Tsukiko .

「 And, I understand . To Misuzu-sama and everyone, Yomiko and Luna, the first experience with Kou-sama let them recognize that sex is something beautiful, it frees their minds, and they feel Kou-sama’s love . They only understand the word rape as a spice for enjoying sex, and nothing else, do they? 」

Misuzu and Ruriko think that way, yes .

「 Kou-sama also don’t hold the desire to be sadistic towards women 」

If I were a real sadist, then I’d continue to have sex no matter how much the woman suffers .

But, earlier, when I was forcing Tsukiko to fellatio, she looked like she’s suffering, so I immediately stopped .

In short, my desires don’t scale to SM plays .

「 To everyone, having sex with Kou-sama is nothing but fun . It’s an enjoyable and safe activity . Kou-sama, you never do anything that would adversely affect our mind and bodies 」

Yeah, I never want to do anything that would hurt my women .

「 That is why we couldn’t have sex with anyone but Kou-sama now . The fun we feel doesn’t come from anyone but only from Kou-sama . We trust Kou-sama and feel safe in your arms 」


I get that .

「 Therefore, even when Misuzu-sama and others find a partner for Kou-sama to ease up your rape impulse, they won’t feel any dark emotions from it . No matter what kind of form it becomes, having sex with Kou-sama is nothing but fun and safe, -is what their belief would say 」

Yeah, in the end, the other party would trust me that I’d make them happy .

That’ll only increase the family again .

Therefore, Misuzu and the girls try to find women who are cute and have a good personality .

They’re convinced that I hold a fantastic power .

「 But, Kou-sama, that’s not the case for you, is it? 」

Tsukiko reads my mind .

「 Kou-sama, your first experience was a bitter memory 」

I lost to my desires and raped Yukino .

That was my first experience .

Yukino hates me, so she’d never want me as her partner .

That wasn’t an act of love .

The more I rape her, the more distance it creates between us .

That’s natural .

I’m the rapist, and she’s the raped woman .

Our relationship is nothing but perpetrator and victim .

She’ll never open up to me . We’ll never understand each other .

But that hurts me .

I raped Yukino a lot of times .

I was hoping to quench my thirst from raping her, and yet,

The more I do it, the more I feel the craving .

Then .

「 Yukino, she… she stole and ate rice from the rice cooker in the middle of the night 」

She took the pot and scooped the rice from there and stuffed her cheeks with rice .

「 Seeing that shameful look in her, it made me understand that we can never reach an understanding 」

Yukino’s life will never overlap with mine .

「 Having that thought, it made me laugh . It past through despair and I felt refreshed 」

Yukino and I will never understand each other .

「 From then on, I keep company with her but with a distance . I can’t do anything on what’s impossible 」

That’s what I think .

「 But, in reality, you want to get along with Yukino-san, don’t you? 」

Tsukiko said .

「 Well yes, but no, we’re doing okay at least . I can talk to Yukino like normal . It’s just that there’s a deep trench in between us 」

Either way, I know that we will never understand each other .

I can talk to her without reserve .

That’s how it is .

「 Is that so? 」

Tsukikolooks into my eyes and mutters .

「 Yukino’s not really a big deal 」

…I

「 The problem is that Misuzu and everyone else overestimates me . They trust me that it would be fun as long as I’m their partner in sex, and I have to respond to their trust 」

Misuzu and Ruriko are both successors of Kouzuki house . That creates insecurity to them .

Agnes and Luna need someone to protect them . Their insecurity is that they can’t live unless someone protects them .

Nei and Edie seek family . That’s their insecurity .

Michi seeks a bond between us . Her relationship with her family isn’t going smoothly .

That’s true for Megu as well . She seeks a bond more than a family or a foster home .

Anyway, the young group all seeks trust and security from me .

One that their real family couldn’t give them .

Therefore, I can’t betray them .

「 But, Kou-sama 」

Tsukiko speaks .

「 You’re so desperate in answering everyone’s expectations, and yet, Kou-sama’s own insecurities aren’t appeased from having sex with everyone 」

…I

「 Kou-sama, if all you do is have sex like it’s work, then it won’t be fun 」

You’re right .

I’m not having fun in sex .

But I have no choice .

So many girls every day .

If they ask for it, then I have to satisfy them .

But .

「 That creates distortion in your mind, and that frustration makes you want to have rape-like sex 」

Is that so?

Rape-like sex means that I care less compared to having ordinary sex .

It’s all to expel the emotions inside of me .

「 But that doesn’t resolve my problems 」

I think .

Nei brought Kana-senpai as someone to eliminate my rape impulse .

In fact, I had fun ravishing Kana-senpai . I was fired up .

But .

In the end, I wasn’t able to continue raping Kana-senpai .

I felt that I want Kana-senpai to enjoy sex too .

In the end, Kana-senpai also became my woman .

In short .

Women who trust me, and I have to satisfy desires have increased by one .

Our next sex won’t be rape anymore .

「 This is a problem 」

Tsukiko sighs .

「 Tsukiko, what do you think I should do? 」

I unconsciously asked this lady who’s a year older than me .

「 I don’t know . I didn’t understand the meaning of sex until yesterday 」

Tsukiko and her sisters were raised without knowledge about sex .

Their fate was to become a shrine maiden and become partners of the big bosses of Yakuza .

It’s probably their parents who judged that their children won’t be able to bear it if they have knowledge about sex and love .

「 I mean, what did Minaho-neesan and Margo-san tell you about my problem, Tsukiko? 」

Why won’t Minaho-neesan talk to me directly?

Even if Tsukiko reads my mind .

Isn’t it a bit harsh to have Tsukiko as my counselor?

She just lost her virginity last night .

「 That’s because they judged that I could think together with Kou-sama if it was me 」

Together?

「 Kuromori Minaho-sama and her group are already adults . They can give Kou-sama advice as an elder 」

They’ll show a clear path on what should I do .

「 Perhaps, they’ll have an answer on how they’ll do it themselves . But they don’t think that they should give it to Kou-sama bluntly 」

「 Why? 」

Minaho-neesan, Margo-san, Katsuko-nee, Nagisa .

I want them to teach me the answer I need to know .

「 That’s because Kou-sama, your life is your own 」

Tsukiko?

「 They must be thinking that Kou-sama must be the one to arrive on the best answer you could have for your life 」

I see .

Minaho-neesan .

They’re starting a new life because they can’t abandon their past as former prostitutes .

Margo-san, she feels despair that she can’t return home to her Indian settlement .

I’m different .

First of all, Minaho-neesan, Margo-san, and the group were victims of sex crimes .

I’m a perpetrator .

Our premise is different .

「 I think that my existence is a tool for Kou-sama to find your way to end your suffering 」

Tsukiko reads my mind .

If I try to fool myself and have a half-baked response, then,

Tsukiko will expose that I lost my way .

As long as Tsukiko looks at me, I should be able to find my answer .

「 For me too, I think 」

Tsukiko looks down

「 I must find an answer to my future 」

「 What do you mean? 」

「 About the question whether it’s okay for us to depend on Kou-sama to save us from our fate 」

That’s .

「 That’s okay . You’re already my woman . I’ll protect you three no matter what 」

I’ve made my resolve .

「 No, I, the descendant of the Takakura shrine maiden must solve it myself 」

Tsukiko, you?!

「 Please take care of Luna and Yomiko . But, seeing Kou-sama’s heart, I feel like I shouldn’t cling and ask for Kou-sama’s help 」

You mean?

「 The problems of Takakura shrine are ours, to begin with, and it’s not something Kou-sama should step in 」

Jii-chan asked me to give Tsukiko and the two an aptitude test for prostitutes, that’s all .

Truth to be told, me fighting with the Kansai Yakuza is absurd .

It’s Jii-chan and Kouzuki SS that are fighting the Kansai Yakuza in front .

Our organization, Kuromori, has nothing to do with it .

We’re not Jii-chan’s subordinates .

But .

I wanted to make the sisters my women .

Therefore, I thought that it’s necessary to poke my nose to the conflict .

「 Nonetheless, I will go to the hotel alone 」

Tsukiko said .

「 Kou-sama, you must stay alive for everyone . You cannot go to dangerous places 」

「 No, I should tell you that, Tsukiko 」

「 I am the next shrine maiden 」

But .

「 It’ll be okay . Kouzuki-sama will never hand me to the bosses, I think 」

Well, Jii-chan,

It’s too late for him to give back Tsukiko to the Yakuza .

Even assigning Tsukiko as the next shrine maiden and have the two big bosses do the arbitration ritual .

But, “what if”

「 Sorry, Tsukiko 」

I .

「 It’s obvious to you that I’m an unreliable man, I knew it 」

That’s why Tsukiko refuses to have me accompany her to the hotel .

I’m just a hindrance to her .

But still .

Dammit .

I’ve betrayed Tsukiko’s expectations .

She’d never trust a man like me .

「 Even so, I’ll do my best . I beg you, leave this to me . I don’t want to let Tsukiko go alone . I…! 」

「 Kou-sama 」

Tsukiko hugs me and knocks me down to the bed .

「 Please embrace me tight 」

「 Okay 」

「 I hug Tsukiko’s soft body 」

「 I’m happy that you say that, Kou-sama . I really am, but 」

Tsukiko rubs her nose to mine .

「 You can’t do that . If you keep doing that, you’ll reach a point where you’ll break 」

Me, break?

「 Kou-sama, you’re too nice 」

Is being nice not okay?

「 We’re thankful for what you did to us sisters . We’re grateful . Actually, the three of us should be in tatters . Yomiko, Luna, and I could’ve been separated and turned to prostitutes . Thanks to Kou-sama, Luna and Yomiko won’t have to part . I think that they’ll be happy as a part of this family 」

「 Stay here too, Tsukiko 」

I said . Tsukiko doesn’t reply to it .

「 Us sisters have lived as the daughters of the Takakura shrine, the succeeding shrine maidens . We’ve been training for it since our birth . Therefore, we never thought we could marry a loved one like an ordinary woman . We were prepared to marry the man appointed to us and bear that man’s child 」

Then suddenly, it was me .

「 Therefore, Yomiko and Luna won’t resist becoming Kou-sama’s woman . 」 Ordinary marriage and married life were irrelevant to us . Please treat them however you want, Kou-sama, sex slave or pregnant slave, it doesn’t matter . My little sisters will be happy to be under Kou-sama’s rule, I think 」

Why are you saying that?

「 In our case, It’s our personal history . 」

Huh?

「 But, from this point onward, Kuromori Minaho-sama told me that next week, several prostitute candidates will visit the mansion again 」

I’ve heard that earlier, yes?

「 You must never show affection to them like how you did to us . 」

Don’t give affection to the girls coming next week?

「 If it’s Kou-sama, you’d feel pity for the next week’s prostitute candidates, and try to add them to your women instead of making them prostitutes, I think 」

I feel the same sentiments .

I worry that I might make the girls I have sex with my family instead .

「 You can’t! 」

Tsukiko scolds me .

「 Why? 」

「 We don’t know what kind of reason they have to want to become a prostitute but either way, they should have a compelling reason to do so 」

That’s .

「 For example, their family’s business has failed, and so they need a lot of money . Or maybe, becoming a prostitute serves as training just like how it was for us 」

Yeah .

If there’s no big reason, then a girl at an appropriate age won’t accept becoming a prostitute .

「 For us, we didn’t understand the work of a prostitute . But, I now understand how repulsive it is after seeing from their memories 」

Tsukiko accessed Minaho-neesan’s memories .

「 If we understood what it means to become a prostitute from the beginning then I probably wouldn’t have sex that I’ll become one 」

Jii-chan cleverly guided them to the idea of becoming a prostitute .

「 But, the people coming next week perhaps know what being a prostitute means, far from understanding it, and they have accepted the fate that they will become one 」

An ordinary girl definitely will .

「 I don’t think that Kou-sama should crush down their resolve . Also… 」

What?

「 Their reason for why they became prostitute won’t disappear 」

I see . If they want to become a prostitute to pay off their parents’ debt, then,

If I were to make that girl my woman, then,

I have to pay for that debt .

「 I don’t even have money . 」

There’s a limit on how much I could borrow from Minaho-neesan and Jii-chan .

And the main point is I don’t know if they would lend me .

There’s nothing I can do about that .

「 Kou-sama, there are also fate that you can’t save people from 」

Women I can’t help out exist .

「 Please understand that . Kou-sama, I know that you’re kind to the girls who can reach out . Just like how you hold me gently right now 」

Tsukiko .

「 But, girls out of your reach can’t be saved . Please understand that 」

Girls I can’t save .

「 I think I’ll be told to become the instructor for the candidates coming next week 」

Just like how they told me to give Tsukiko and the two an aptitude test .

「 Then, after having sex with a girl, can you abandon her? Will you let her become a prostitute? 」

That’s . I…

「 You must 」

Tsukiko said .

「 Kou-sama will teach them about sex, that’s your help . You must tell them “Do your best in life” 」

Help .

Is that all I can do?

「 That’s not it . A person receiving support can do their best no matter how hard times can be . They’ll stand firm . They’ll endure . That’s very important! 」

Tsukiko

「 Kou-sama, it’s impossible to love all the women you encounter . You must understand the difference between Misuzu-sama and everyone, and Yukino, a person within your reach and out of your reach . Please show more love to the women within your reach more than ever . Then, please give up on girls out of your reach 」

Is that all I can do?

No, I know that the number of people I can hold is reaching its limits .

if I accept more women than I have now then I might neglect those that I already have now .

If that’s the case,

Even if I try to help out those girls within my reach .

I must give up on those out of my reach .

「 Therefore, Kou-sama, please support Tsukiko 」

Tsukiko smiles, looking lonely .

「 I will go alone . Kou-sama, you’re embracing me in your arms now but, I’ll go to a place where you can’t reach me 」

「 Don’t say that Tsukiko! 」

I hug Tsukiko with all my strength .

「 Aah, Kou-sama . Please give Tsukiko the courage to face all those scary people 」

「 I don’t want to give you just courage . I’m going too, I won’t let Tsukiko go alone! 」

「 No, just courage is enough 」

Hey, Tsukiko!!

「 As long as I have courage, I, Tsukiko, can do my best . I will fight the bosses and Kiyomi-sama as the next Takakura shrine maiden!!! 」

Tsukiko! I!!!