Sumi de ii desu. Kamawanaide kudasai - Chapter 10

Chapter 10

The beginning: daily life 8

This is a story about the first day I started working at Amatsuki Brothel.

“Fufu, you’ve finally come. I’m Kiyomizu. Can you say it?”
“Kiyomizu nii-sama”

Of course I can say it, I’m five. And an adult inside!!
But even though I thought this, I won’t say it because I’m an aduuuult. And this person is my savior. I couldn’t be rude.

“Allll right, then today I’ll have you start with learning how to put on and take off a kimono”
“Yes”

The day after I entered Amatsuki, right from the start I was attached to a courtesan nii-sama in order to be taught as a kamuro.
And right from the first day, to be attached to that savior of my heart. Since he was a very kind person, with a gentle demeanor, and was handsome; as I was being taught, I was thinking that he must be very popular.
When I first saw him, I honestly thought he was a woman, but when I heard his voice during his introduction, I was convinced that he was definitely a man. It seemed that Oyaji-sama’s words that ‘There are swarms of people who you can’t tell are women or men’ were true after all.
What a frightening world, in a lot of ways.

“First we’ll start with how to take the kimono off”

There weren’t that many layers of kimono, but this was one of the jobs of the kamuro. It seemed like madness for the me right now to help a man with changing, but since they’re letting me live here I can’t be willful.

But this picture.
This picture of a small child, standing right in front of a young man and taking off his kimono.
Nii-sama helped by guiding my hands, but it’s still embarrassing. So embarrassing. I’m sure my face is completely red right now, though I can’t see it.

First the indigo haori is carefully taken off. (it’s the blue outermost thing)
All right, it’s still okay, still okay. I’m not looking—

Next was the black long outer kimono, along with the obi.(obi is the belt thingie)

It’s okay, I still can’t see. The red under-kimono is still hiding his skin.(couldn’t find a good red one but you can kinda see how it’s thinner than the outer kimono)

Maiden, I’m still a maiden.

And then the last fortress, the under kimono. As my face got even redder as I reached out to remove it,
“! ,sorry, could I have you look upwards for a bit?” I heard at the same time three unnatural long worm-like swellings on his lower stomach appeared before my eyes. It almost looked like it had been sewn up.
Wonder what it is.

“! Stop!”
Slap

“Wah,”
“…..ah”

I got curious, and the hand that, with a child’s instinct or whatever, that I unconsciously touched him with was knocked away. My hand was slightly red and stung a bit but I didn’t pay any mind.

I was more worried about nii-sama.
Having belatedly realized he had knocked my hand away, he was frowning with an extremely dark face.

“I’m sorry, that must have hurt. Sorry about that”


“I, I’m the one at fault….so”

After that the lesson was strangely awkward.
I had a feeling that I had touched upon something that shouldn’t have been disturbed. Both physically and emotionally.
Nah, not just a feeling, that was the truth. Definitely.

I’m so stupid!! Without even thinking I casually touched another person’s scar thing so stupid!! So stupid!!!

But even in that awkward atmosphere, time still moved on. As if it didn’t know of the world’s heartlessness; whether things went well or didn’t go well, time still went on.
I was able to the undressing and dressing a bit smoother now, but in another sense something important was not going smoothly. But somehow I was able to keep going until it was time to finish.

When it was around that time, Oyaji-sama came to the room.

“How was it today, Nogiku? You’ll be with a different brother tomorrow, but how about it? It’s just the beginning, so do you want to just stick with Kiyomizu for a while? It’s not like you’re paying off a debt or anything so I’ll let you choose however you want”

To be honest, it was awkward so I thought it might be better to be with a different person tomorrow. It must be hard for Kiyomizu nii-sama too. To be blunt I think he hates me now.

But for some reason this person’s dark face wouldn’t leave my mind. Was I going to just run away after forcing this person to make such a face?
He was smiling now, but after seeing that expression, I honestly couldn’t tell if he was really smiling from the heart anymore.
Even though I had been saved by this person’s smile.

Myself! Is it really okay like this!!

“…is, ….”
“?”


“…..KIyomizu nii-sama is, f,fine….”
“That so. Then you should get used to things with him for another three days. We’re done for today so go back to your room, I’ll have Shuusui come get you so have him guide you. …..Good for you, Kiyomizu”

Oyaji-sama opened the door and left.
The original situation returned.
Looking at him, Kiyomizu nii-sama was smiling while furrowing his brow slightly.
W,what a hard to describe expression…..

“You don’t have to force yourself, you know? You’re a bit scared of me, aren’t you?”
“Eh, “

So hard to answer!!
But rather than that, so nii-sama thought that I would be scared of him just from having my hand knocked away a bit. You’re too sensitive!
But, aaaah, what should I say! It didn’t seem right to lie and say ‘No, I don’t mind at all’ here either.
Because I reeeaaally mind. I’m really regretting touching him. My body that stiffened at this question indicated this whole thing.

“We can still go to Oyaji-sama and….”
“Um!!”

For the time being, I spoke out to stop Kiyomizu nii-sama, who was trying to go get Oyaji-sama. I might be hated, but I don’t have any choice but to be upfront about my feelings.

For me, the first thing I saw was nii-sama’s,

“I like nii-sama’s n,nice eyes!”
“?”


“I like your smiling face?”
“………..”
“I, I, I’m sorry I touched you!!”
“Listen, “
“If you hate me now I’m, I’m sorry! Is, is it okay to stay with you!!”

I stuttered about but please don’t mind. Because I’m desperate.

“Nogiku, you don’t have to be so desperate, I don’t hate you at all”
“Yes!”
“Haha, you’re willing to stay with me?”
“Yes!!”

I replied with a never yet seen snappiness.
Well, I’m not sure if the me before replied like this, but.

A few days later, immediately after encountering him I was suddenly subjected to ‘up high up hiiiigh!’
The day after that as well.
As I was frozen with a mystified expression,

“I like kids like you,”

Is what he said. I see, so he likes kids. If he was a woman, he’d probably make a good mother.