He had never obtained it, and perhaps he did not have to endure the pain of losing it. However, it was not an easy thing to silently endure so many years of suffering.
You in green clothes, softly in my heart, for the sake of you, I have been pondering until now…
Lan Xiu raised his head and drank up the wine in his glass. He even swallowed the sour and bitter pain in his throat. In the distance, he did not know which corner, but he could vaguely hear such a familiar melody—
“If this chandelier falls down, perhaps I will no longer exist. Even if you don’t love me, you don’t need to be separated. If at this moment I have a serious dementia, I don’t need to be loved at all. I will always dream in bed and never be sad for the rest of my life…”
Lan Xiu’s eyes suddenly heated up.
He was most afraid of this moment. The person he loved was right in front of him, but he couldn’t do anything about it. He couldn’t have it, and the regret would last for a long time.
Lan Xiu could not guarantee that he would be able to forget this unspeakable feeling in the years to come. However, at this moment, he was really sad, even though this was not just a one-time thing for him.
“Your words are no comfort to me. Liuyun, every time I hear something like this, I feel even worse. However, as long as you live well, it’s fine. “Initially, I couldn’t bear to see Ah Ye like that, but seeing that you’re living well, I suddenly wanted to be a little selfish. Perhaps letting you stay by Qi Lei’s side forever was the best choice. At least, you’ve cried and laughed for Fujiwara, and you’ve been in pain, but Qi lei can bring you satisfaction and happiness. Qi Lei can make you happier than Ah Ye. I didn’t really believe in this in the past, but now, I believe in it.”
Lan Xiu’s low voice came through, and a faint light flashed in his slightly warm eyes, “So, for the project with Mr. Ge, let’s not do this anymore. I hope that you can live the life you want without any pressure. Don’t feel that you owe anything. You’ve already done very well. You’ve made a lot of contributions to the company over the years. Without you, I, Lan Xiu, would probably have failed miserably a long time ago. Others might not understand my experience, but you understand it the best. Back then, when the company was caught up in the economic crisis and the internal betrayal of Manager Chen, I was already mentally and physically exhausted. If it weren’t for you, I would have collapsed a long time ago.”
“Don’t underestimate yourself. You’ve always been very strong. At least, in my eyes, you’re a good partner. These years, even without me, you’ve done well. Perhaps, if you didn’t consider me, you could have done even better.” Dongfang Liuyun replied in a low voice.
“Liuyun, you overestimate me. In fact, many people overestimate me. To be honest, with the situation back then, if it wasn’t for you and Uncle Dongfang’s encouragement, my brother and I might not have been able to go on like this. Even if older brother met with misfortune now, I think that he must be very grateful to you in his heart.”
“So, seeing that you’ve trapped yourself for so many years because of him, he wouldn’t bear it.”
“The biggest mistake I made in my life was probably implicating Lan Qi back then. He didn’t have to bear all this in the first place. I used him. If I hadn’t asked him to accompany me back then, I think I wouldn’t have suffered all this. It’s also my fault for not thinking properly. I knew that I was in a mess with Fujiwara back then, but I still messed things up. I harmed Lan Qi for nothing.”
“I blame Fujiwara for letting go too quickly. If he had held on a little longer to pull Lan Qi, Lan Qi wouldn’t have fallen like that. She would definitely have been saved. But then I thought about it. At that time, it wasn’t up to me to decide whether or not to let go. Everyone was exhausted. When I think about that, I no longer hate Fujiwara. I should hate myself even more.”
This was the first time Dongfang Liuyun had mentioned that incident. Fujiwara and Dongfang Liuyun did not want to talk about it either.
Lan Xiu only remembered that when he saw Dongfang Liuyun hugging the bloodied Lan Qi and kneeling in the rubble, his heart was also bleeding.
“I spent so many years to let these things settle. Every time I think of that incident, I feel more guilty towards Lan Qi. As long as I’m alive, I’m fine. If I’m dead, there’d be nothing left.”
“Life and death are determined by fate. Older brother has long entered the cycle of reincarnation. Ah Ye was also heartbroken over this matter. I think that if he could turn back time, he would rather be the one who fell than hope that it was Lan Qi. Now, what else could he do? Everyone’s been suffering and enduring.”
“I’ve already made it clear to him that between him and I, it’s fated that we’re not meant to be together. It’s impossible for us to go back to how we were. I heard that there’s a Miss Inoue over there who has always been very fond of him. I think that someone that the Fujiwara family has taken a liking to should be pretty good as well. Let him finish his business here as soon as possible and go back. I don’t know how many years he has left. I keep feeling that a person’s life is very short. It’s time for us to treat our feelings fairly, including you, Lan Xiu.”
As Dongfang Liuyun spoke, she poured herself another glass of wine.
“How did it get to me again? Weren’t we talking about you? You know that I’m anti-marriage too, I’ve said it before.” Lan Xiu smiled.
“It’s impossible for you to not get married for the rest of your life, right? I remember that there was a university teacher who was quite good-looking and very kind. Didn’t she have a crush on you for a long time? Why didn’t you consider her?” Dongfang Liuyun looked up at Lan Xiu and asked calmly.
“She just got married to a male teacher in her school last month. How do you want me to consider it?” Lan Xiu smiled helplessly.
“That’s because she waited on you for too long, so she gave up. Waiting is a very torturous thing. Not everyone can be consistent. Take me for example. No matter how much I had hoped for Fujiwara, I still let him go and married Qi Lei.”
Dongfang Liuyun drank a glass of wine and took a deep breath. “That’s all my feelings were. This was as far as I could go.”
“However, I don’t want to just stop here with you, Dongfang Liuyun. You know best what you took from me, I definitely won’t let this go.”
As Dongfang Liuyun finished speaking, a deep and firm voice sounded. A wild and cold fragrance assaulted them. Without even looking, Dongfang Liuyun could already guess who it was.
Lan Xiu subconsciously turned his head to look. Only then did he realize that Fujiwara was standing upright under the tree beside them. The cold wind constantly blew against the corner of his clothes, but he was like a stone statue, standing motionlessly, he did not know how long he had stayed there…
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