The Apothecary Diaries - Volume 1 - Chapter 30

Chapter 30: Ah-Duo

It was pure coincidence that Maomao sneaked out of the Jade Pavilion on that particular night: she couldn’t sleep.

The next day, the Pure Consort would depart the rear palace.

Maomao wandered aimlessly around the grounds. The palace was already firmly in the grip of winter cold, and she wore two cotton overgarments against the chill. One thing hadn’t changed in the rear palace: promiscuity was alive and well, and one had to be careful not to look too closely among the bushes or into the shadows. For those who burned with passion, the winter chill presented no obstacle.

Maomao glanced up and saw the half-moon hanging in the sky. A memory of Princess Fuyou danced through her head, and Maomao decided that since she was out here anyway, maybe she would climb up on the wall. She would have liked to “share a drink with the moon,” as the old poets put it, but as there was no alcohol in the Jade Pavilion she regretfully gave up the idea. She should have saved some of the stuff Jinshi had given her. She suddenly craved some snake wine—it had been so long since she’d had any—but then she remembered what had happened the other day, and shook her head, realizing it wasn’t worth it.

Using the protruding bricks in the corner of the outer wall as footholds, Maomao pulled herself up to the top. She had to mind her skirt, lest she tear it.

A proverb had it that only two things liked high places—idiots and smoke—but Maomao had to confess, it felt good to be up above it all. The moon and a sprinkling of stars shone down upon the Imperial city. The lights she could see in the distance must have been the pleasure district. She was sure that the flowers and the bees had begun their nightly communion there by now.

Maomao had no particular business up there on the wall. She simply sat on the edge, kicking her legs and looking up at the sky.

“Well, well. Someone got here before me?” The voice was neither high nor low. Maomao turned to discover a handsome young man in long pants. No—it looked like a young man, but it was Consort Ah-Duo. She’d tied her hair back in a ponytail that cascaded down her back, and a large gourd-flask was suspended from her shoulder. There was a touch of red in her cheeks, and she was dressed relatively lightly. Her footing was sure, but it seemed she’d had a bit to drink.

“Don’t mind me, milady. I’ll be leaving presently,” Maomao said.

“There’s no rush. Share a cup with me?”

Presented with a drinking cup, Maomao could find no reason to refuse. She might normally have declined on the grounds that she was Consort Gyokuyou’s serving woman, but Maomao wasn’t so vulgar as to refuse a last drink with Consort Ah-Duo on her last night in the rear palace. (Perfectly logical, you see: she certainly wasn’t simply tempted by the opportunity for some wine.)

Maomao held the cup in both hands; it was full of a cloudy drink. The wine had a strongly sweet taste, without much of the acid sting of alcohol. She didn’t say anything, just lapped at the cup of wine. Ah-Duo showed no compunction in drinking directly out of the gourd.

“Thinking I seem a little mannish?”

“Thinking that’s how you seem to be acting.”

“Hah, a straight shooter. I like that.” Ah-Duo raised one knee, bracing her chin on her hand. Her sharp nose and the long eyebrows that fringed her eyes looked somehow familiar to Maomao. They reminded her of someone she knew, she thought, but her mind was a little cloudy, like the drink. “Ever since my son slipped away from me, I’ve been His Majesty’s friend. Or maybe I should say, gone back to being.”

She stood by him as a friend, without having to act like a consort. Someone who had known him since they nursed together. She’d never imagined she would be chosen as a consort. She was his first partner, yes, but only, she’d assumed, as his guide. One might almost say a mentor. Then, because of His Majesty’s fondness for her, she’d remained a consort for more than ten years, though she’d been only ornamental. She’d wished he would hurry up and hand her off to someone. Why had he clung to her so?

Ah-Duo continued ruminating to herself. She would likely have gone on whether or not Maomao was there; whether or not anyone was there. This consort would be gone tomorrow. Whatever rumors might spread in the rear palace would no longer be any concern of hers.

Maomao only listened in silence.

When she had finally finished speaking, the consort got to her feet and turned the gourd upside down, emptying its contents over the wall, into the moat beyond. She seemed to be offering the libation as a parting gift, and Maomao thought of the serving woman who had killed herself some days before.

“It must have been so cold, in the water.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

“She must have suffered.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

“How stupid.”

After a beat, Maomao said, “You may be right.”

“Everyone, so stupid.”

“You may be right.”

She understood, dimly. The serving woman had been a suicide. And Ah-Duo knew it. Perhaps she had known the woman who killed herself.

Maybe “everyone” included Fengming. She might have had a hand in the woman’s death.

There was the serving woman, sunk in the freezing water so that suspicion might not fall on Consort Ah-Duo.

There was Fengming, who had hung herself to keep a secret that must never be known.

There were all those who had given their lives for Ah-Duo, literally or figuratively, whether she wished it or not.

What a tremendous waste.

Ah-Duo had the personality and the mettle to rule people. If she could have been by the Emperor’s side, not as his consort, but in another form, perhaps politics would have gone more smoothly. Perhaps.

Maomao let the thoughts drift through her mind, though there was no point to them now, as she gazed up at the stars.

Ah-Duo climbed back down the wall first, and Maomao, starting to feel properly chilly, was just doing the same when she was stopped by a voice.

“What are you doing?”

Startled, Maomao lost her footing and slipped from halfway down the wall, landing hard on her back and behind.

“Who the hell was that?” she grumbled to herself.

“Well, pardon me,” the voice hissed, now right in her ear. She turned in surprise to see Jinshi, looking less than pleased.

“Master Jinshi. What are you doing here?”

“You took the words right out of my mouth.”

Maomao realized she hadn’t felt any pain when she landed. There had been an impact, true, but no sense of having hit the ground. This was one mystery that wasn’t hard to solve: she had fallen right on top of Jinshi.

Whoops! Maomao made to get up again, but she couldn’t move. She was held fast.

“Master Jinshi, perhaps you could let go of me?” she said, trying to sound polite, but Jinshi’s arms remained resolutely wrapped around her midriff. “Master Jinshi...”

He stubbornly ignored her. Maomao squirmed a little, turning to get a look at his face, and she discovered there was a flush in his cheeks. She could smell alcohol on his breath. “Have you been drinking?”

“I was socializing. Didn’t have a choice,” Jinshi said, and looked up at the sky. The winter air was crisp and clear, making the light of the stars seem even brighter.

Socializing. Right. Maomao looked suspiciously at him. “Socializing” in the rear palace could mean some very shady things. It could be argued that the Emperor still gave the place’s inhabitants a bit too much freedom, even if many of them were missing some very important parts.

“I said, let go of me.”

“Don’t wanna. I’m cold.” For all his beauty, the eunuch sounded downright petulant. Well, of course he was cold; he wasn’t wearing so much as a light jacket. Maomao wondered where Gaoshun was.

“I’m sure you are, so you’d better get back to your room before you catch a cold.” She didn’t care whether the room he went back to was his own quarters or the chambers of whoever had shared the wine with him.

Jinshi, though, pressed his forehead against Maomao’s neck, almost nuzzling her. “Dammit... Asking me in to drink, getting me all soused up. Then it’s ‘I think I’ll step out for a while.’ Sure! Off you go! To... To who knows where! Dammit. Then you’re back, but now you’re ‘feeling much better’! And chasing me out, too! Damn it all!”

Maomao discovered she was impressed to realize that there was anyone in the rear palace with the nerve to treat Jinshi that way. But that was neither here nor there. I’m so not interested in having to hang out with a drunk person. They always got clingy like this, that was the problem. Actually, hold on...

It finally sank in that Maomao was in her current situation because she’d come falling down on Jinshi from above. He’d had the good grace to break her fall, even if he hadn’t known he was doing it. Even if it was the alcohol that had left him lying among the weeds at that particular moment. Maybe it was a little rude, Maomao reflected, to immediately start giving orders without even a word of thanks to someone who had just saved you from a nasty fall. But then, she couldn’t just lie there, either.

“Master Jinsh—” Her latest attempt to free herself was interrupted by a feeling of something dropping onto her neck. The warm feeling ran down her back.

“Just a moment longer,” Jinshi said, hugging her tighter. “Help me warm myself just a little bit.”

Maomao sighed: his voice sounded nothing like it ordinarily did. Then she looked up at the sky, and started counting the gleaming stars one by one.

A great crowd gathered at the main gate the next day. The rear palace’s longest-serving consort was, in contrast to the night before, dressed in a wide-sleeved jacket and skirt that suited her hardly at all. Some of the women around clutched handkerchiefs. The handsome, boyish consort had been something of an idol to many of the young ladies.

Jinshi stood in front of Ah-Duo. One might have worried about them after all the drinking the night before, but neither showed any sign of a hangover. She gave him something: a headdress, the symbol of the Pure Consort. Before long, it would pass to another woman.

They could stand to trade outfits. The celestial beauty and the handsome woman. In principle, they could hardly have been more different, and yet oddly, they seemed to share much. So that’s it, Maomao thought. The night before, she’d thought Ah-Duo resembled somebody, but hadn’t been able to think of who. It must have been Jinshi. What would have happened if Consort Ah-Duo had been in Jinshi’s position?

But it was a silly question. Not worth thinking about. Ah-Duo in no way appeared like a pitiful reject being chased out of the rear palace. She walked with her head high and her chest out; one could even say she had the triumphant look of a woman who had done her duty.

How could she look so proud? How, when she had never done the one thing a consort must do? Maomao suddenly found herself in the grip of an absurd possibility. Ah-Duo’s words from the night before came back to her: “Ever since my son slipped away from me...”

Now Maomao thought: Slipped away? Not... died?

One could very nearly take the consort to mean her son was still alive. Ah-Duo had lost the ability to bear children because her delivery had come at the same time as that of the Empress Dowager. The Imperial younger brother and the consort’s child were uncle and nephew, and they’d been born at almost the exact same time. It was possible they had practically looked like twins.

What if they were switched?

Even as she was giving birth, Consort Ah-Duo would have known with absolute certainty which of the two infants would be the more diligently raised, the more treasured. The best possible patronage for a child would never come from Ah-Duo, the daughter of a wet nurse. But from an Empress Dowager...

It couldn’t have been easy for Ah-Duo, whose recovery after the birth had been slow, to be sure what was right. But if, by making the switch, her own son might be saved—it would be understandable if she wished for such a thing.

And if it came to light later? If the true Imperial younger brother was already dead by then? Then it would make sense why Maomao’s father had been not only banished, but mutilated as well. Because he had failed to notice that the infants had been switched. It would explain why His Majesty’s younger brother led such a constrained life. And why the otherwise chaste Ah-Duo had remained so long in the rear palace.

Bah. This is ridiculous. Maomao shook her head. An outrageous fantasy. A leap even her fellow ladies-in-waiting at the Jade Pavilion wouldn’t make.

No point in staying here, Maomao thought. She was just about to head back to the Jade Pavilion when she saw someone coming her direction in a rush. It was the sweet-looking young consort, Lishu. She showed no sign of having noticed Maomao, but veritably ran toward the main gate. Her food taster trailed behind her, gasping for breath. Her other ladies-in-waiting came behind them, not running at all, and in fact looking thoroughly annoyed by the entire scene.

Some people never change. Well, I guess at least one of them has. It wasn’t like Maomao would or could do anything about it. Someone who couldn’t take her own people in hand was someone who wouldn’t survive in this garden of women.

But now she wasn’t alone. That, at least, was heartening.

Consort Lishu appeared before Consort Ah-Duo, her arms and legs moving awkwardly together, almost mechanically. She was tripping on the hem of her own dress, and presently tumbled headlong to the ground. As the crowd attempted to suppress its laughter, and Consort Lishu lay there looking like she might cry, Ah-Duo took out a handkerchief and gently helped the young woman wipe the dirt off her face.

In that moment, the face of the handsome young consort was that of a loving mother.