Dragon Maken War - Chapter 209

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Chapter 209 - The Return of a Legend II (8)

Yuren looked sick .

“…he’s lost his mind .  I guess it is to be expected .  Every being sealed within was like that . ”

“That is why I sealed him . Of course, there was  a part of me that sympathized with his feelings, and I agreed with his plan to a certain extent… . .   However, I came to the conclusion that a world where no new possibility could be born couldn’t last forever .  The mind world and the material world are two sides of the same coin .  If new possibility cannot be provided on one side, I worried the other side would become starved . ”

Yuren’s expression turned peculiar .  Atein’s reason drastically differed from what he would have come up with .

“Does that mean you wouldn’t have gotten in the way of Reginor if a true eternal paradise could have been created?”

“I think so .  His method had the possibility of transcending the many problems of this world .  He might have created a utopia . ”

“…… . ”

“Amongst the 12 transcendent beings I sealed, Reginor’s goal was the most realistic and idealistic amongst them .  The others were like the beings you guys put down .  They were trying to fulfill inadmissible ideas . ”

“You call that idea realistic?  You are crazy too . ”

“If seen from the perspective of a human, I won’t deny that it looks that way .  However . . . ”

Atein continued to speak in a calm manner .

“Every one of them had come to the same conclusion as me . ”

“They wanted to create a paradise?  I guess you started the Dragon Demon war to create your ideal nation . ”

“No .  I’m talking about something that is much more fundamental .  Each and every one of them thought they would someday be alone . ”

Humans died .

Nations made by humans perished at some point in time .

Then…… .

“I believe humanity will become extinct some day . ”

If a person he loved died, it was sad .  However, he could accept it with humility .  However, what happens if there weren’t anyone that he could sympathize and communicate with?  What happens if no one was left?  He couldn’t accept the fear caused by this idea .

It wasn’t just Atein .  Every single being that was sealed possessed the same fear .

They all knew that humanity would become extinct some day .  If left alone, the unending malice of humans would cause them to kill each other .  They all wanted to stop that .  They all thought their own method could ensure that the future would be perpetuated through eternity .  They were all sure that their own method was the only method that could guarantee success .

“I like the fact that the things I made was passed down and improved on .  I like that my story was told .  I’m fine even if I become a distorted version myself .  I don’t mind if humans repeat their foolish mistakes .  I’ll tolerate anything if I’m not the only one left in this world… . ”

Atein lived for a very long time, and he remained a stranger to everyone .  No one could exist in the same time frame as him .  The Dragon Demon generals were like children to him .

Countless meetings and partings repeated itself .  His interests and attachments dimmed towards individuals .  He now saw everything as a whole, and he watched everything at a distance .  His goal for humans… .  His goal for all intelligent beings was survival and happiness .

Yuren spoke .

“You are… .  You are egotistical at a really grand scale . ”

“I won’t deny that fact .  I changed the world for myself, and I’m trying to change it again . ”

“However, I think I can understand how you feel by a very minute amount . ”

“You are human, yet you are saying that?”

Atein tilted his head .  From his perspective, the human youth was like a mayfly, yet Atein didn’t express anger or ridicule .  He just looked puzzled .

Yuren spoke .

“It happened because of you .  You probably already know this, but I grew up under the care of  the fanatics that worship you as a god . ”

“I know that . ”

“That place was a factory that created more fanatics . ”

The Dragon Demon King worshipper fostered numerous children, and they were crammed with madness .  They were created to be fanatics in this factory .  Each children’s thought process was    separated from the common sense of the world .  

Anyone that wasn’t a Dragon Demon King worshippers were great sinners .  They could be killed with impunity .  No, it was righteous to kill the non-believers, and one shouldn’t feel afraid of sacrificing one’s life to kill them .

Everyone was made to think the same, and Yuren had awakened to his own sanity thanks to the Guide .  He became a loner from that point on .

Everyone that breathed and occupied the same space as him spoke the same language, yet he couldn’t empathize with them at all .  From Yuren’s perspective, they were all monsters in the visage of humans .

“I couldn’t share joy or sadness with them .  It wouldn’t have mattered if it was something inconsequential .  It would have been great if I could laugh with them, but there was no way I could do that . ”

He could pretend to be like them on the outside .  However, that was just a necessary attempt at survival .  He had to act .  Fear and loneliness was the two emotions that had ruled over Yuren for a very long time .

“That is why I can understand your feelings a little bit, Atein . ”

“I see…… . ”

Atein let out a bitter laugh .  Atein didn’t deny Yuren’s claim that he understood how Atein felt .  For a moment, the two of them shared a small portion of each other’s loneliness .

Yuren spoke .

“Shall we go back to the beginning? That is why I’m scared . ”

“I still don’t understand what that has to do with your identity . ”

“I don’t know who I am .  I am Carlos Rizester’s descendant, and I was grown to be a human weapon by the hands of the Dragon Demon king worshippers .  It still leaves many unanswered questions . Didn’t I tell you earlier?  I was awakened by an unknown being called the Guide . ”

“You did .  I really am curious to know his identity . ”

“You might be able to find out soon .  Anyways, someone planned out my destiny .  Still, I am thankful for being allowed to understand freedom .  I’m thankful for being able to choose my own fate . ”

“Then why are you afraid?”

“I’ve been lonely for a very long time .  However, I’m no longer lonely . ”

Yuren turned to look at his comrades .  He did not elaborate any further .  The words he had spoken right now was so embarrassing that it was hard to bear,

“I no longer feel lonely thanks to them, and I’m afraid of hurting them . ”

Yuren spoke those words as he took out something from his pocket .  It was nondescript .  It was a fist sized steel box .

Carlos had given it to him .  It was called the Box of Hope .  Yuren had been warned that he would face irreversible destruction when he opened it .

“Azell . ”

Yuren’s gaze remained on Atein as he spoke .

“I know you are awake .  So do you mind answering me?”

“Yuren, you… . . ”

Azell answered him .

It was clear that Azell was flustered .  He didn’t care that Yuren realized that he was awake .  However, he cared about the fact that Yuren had went out of his way to reveal his consciousness to his enemies .

Azell had received help from Arrieta .  She had given him emergency treatment to his wounds, and he was waiting for an opportunity to go on the counteroffensive .  He was severely injured, but he was able to use Incarnation .  He would time the move with an all out assault by the Guardian Shadows .  He judged that it would allow them the opportunity to escape from this place .

From just that single phrase from Yuren, his plan became useless .  Yuren knew this, yet he continued to speak calmly .

“You spoke about me with Carlos-nim, right?”

“…… . ”

“I know that you know a secret, and it is something that you are having a difficult time telling me .  I picked up on it .  In truth, it was quite apparent from Carlos-nim’s attitude when he gave me this item . ”

Unlike the other party members, Yuren couldn’t be trusted .  Carlos had made this judgement, and this was why Yuren wasn’t given any items that increased his overall capabilities .  Moreover, Carlos had made sure that Laura was the only one that could look into the magic tome left behind by Carlos .

Yuren wasn’t an idiot, so he easily realized what was going on .  It would be a lie to say he wasn’t hurt by their actions, but he also understood why they had decided that course of action .

“I’m afraid, because I cannot trust myself .  Therefore, how can I ask others to believe in me?”

Azell let out a bitter laughter as he looked at Yuren .  Azell’s gaze rose to meet Yuren’s eyes .

“I am thankful . ”

Yuren’s gaze was directed towards his comrades .

Azell, Laura, Kairen, Leticia and Arrieta… . .

“By meeting you all, I was able to like myself just a little bit . . ”

“Yuren…… . ”

“Please tell me about Carlos-nim’s conjecture as to what my identity is .  I want to hear it from you . ”

For a moment, Azell read a familiar emotion in Yuren’s eyes .  He had seen it so much that he was sick of it .  These emotions were something Azell no longer wanted to see in the eyes of others .

Yuren was ready to die here .

When Yuren realized Azell’s plan, he messed it up, because he had made up his mind .  His sacrifice would bring about a better result than Azell’s plan .  That was what he determined .

“…Carlos surmised that you might be the reincarnation of Kayalia . ”

“Kayalia?  Isn’t she Atein’s third wife?  How?”

Yuren couldn’t understand how this could be possible .  In truth, Yuren had expected Azell to name Aunsaurus or Baldazark .  Carlos had fought in the Great Darkness to stop the revival of those two, so Yuren believed that one of those two had been reincarnated as himself .

Azell spoke .

“It isn’t well-known, but Kaylia is an existence that knows the technique of reincarnation .  Before she became Atein’s wife, she had her own kingdom, and she was continuously born again through her descendants .  She had lived for a very long time, and she was very powerful . ”

“Ah .  That’s why . ”

He accepted the explanation .  It lined up too well with the theory he had about his own identity .

At the same time, he was sure that they were wrong .

‘I’m not Kayalia . ’

If Reygus possessed a living body at that moment, Yuren might have felt something was off when he saw Reygus’ expression .  For a brief moment, Almarick had flinched, but he had schooled his expression .  Unlike Almarick, Reygus would have had an odd expression on his face .

However, Reygus was an Undead now .  He was also in his transformed state, so his expression couldn’t be viewed by anyone .  That is why Yuren could only trust in what he felt in his guts .

Azell spoke .

“According to the information gathered by Carlos, Kayalia lived as a completely different person until she is awakened .  At some moment, she awakens to become Kayalia once again…  Carlos worried that we would face an archmage that rivalled the Dragon Demon generals when you awakened .  He was afraid you would become our enemy . ”

Azell had spoken to Laura about this .  He believed there was no way Yuren would become their enemy .

It wasn’t a lie .  If Yuren became conscious of his identity as Kayalia, his sense of self as Yuren would die .  Kayalia would take its place .

“Thank you . ”

When he heard Azell’s answer, Yuren let out a bright smile .

“The regrets… .  If I'm to be truthful, I still have many left .  However, I think I can leave them behind . ”

He still didn’t know what his identity was .  If he continued on this path, his fear might be realized .  He might awaken to become the enemy of his party .

That was why this was the right time for him .

He believed in his ancestor Carlos .  Carlos had been suspicious of Yuren’s identity, so Carlos had given him this item .  There was no way this item would cause harm to Azell .

‘I don’t care what my identity is . ’

The only important thing right now was the fact that he would never turn against his comrades .  The truth might destroy his soul, but if it was the cost to saving his comrades, he would gladly accept it .

“Thank you for waiting, Atein . ”

“You still have something you can do?”

“I’m happy to say that I do have something . ”

Yuren grabbed the Box of Hope .

“Azell, Laura and Arrieta . ”

He laughed as he turned to those that were still conscious .

“Please give my thanks to Leticia and the duke . ”

He opened the box, and black darkness started pouring out .