Kininaru Kanojo wo Totokon Okashi Tsukusu Hanashi - Chapter 34

Chapter 34

True feelings

I was deflowered by Sakimori-kun 3 weeks after entering high school .

I’m no good with men .

Back in middle school my breasts became big and all the guys around me only stared at them .

When we spoke they also stole glances, and during PE when I run they openly said that they looked at my breasts, that can’t be tolerated .

And just like that, I concealed my big breasts when I entered high school .

But, soon the rumor of me having big breasts spread among the girls and it soon reached the ears of the guys, I was looked at with curious eyes again .

Then came the day that I can never forget, I was doing shuttle run during PE, but I lied that I was on period to go rest in the school infirmary .

That time the health teacher wasn’t’ there so I borrowed the bed on my own and slept

After a short while I opened my eyes, but my limbs were tied to four corners of the bed and I couldn’t move .

When I realized there was a guy looking at me it was all too late, my mouth was blocked I couldn’t scream for help and my virginity was taken away .

When it ended the man took pictures of my genial and boobs .

After that he threatened me, and occasionally called me over to his house to have sex with him all night .

Then it was the fourth time he called me over .
It was as usual when he sucked my boobs while having the TV turned on, it was streaming an airplane accident . Because a small airplane crashed into the mountains the safety of the crew wasn’t clear .

Then his mouth stopped, his tongue separated from my nipple .

As I thought he was in a strange state he started to tremble as if it was cold .
It was May so it shouldn’t be cold, but more than that I didn’t understand why he was suddenly cold .

Then he suddenly hugged me . I didn’t really understand about him embracing me differently to the usual . The force he put in to hug me like handling something important only hurt .

He didn’t say anything and took me to the bed .

Then he embraced me until morning is the usual, but that day he was really gentle with love .
Then while that happened, I had this compelling thought that I was needed .

Normally he just viewed me as a sexual target, but I think it was the first time he saw me as a loved one .

I felt joy as a woman when I felt like I was needed

The boys have always viewed me as a sexual target since middle school, even the guys who confessed to me were looking at my breasts not my eyes .

I was bewildered that the first person who values me is the one that raped me, but that day I greeted the sunlight with a happy mood .

But it seemed like he didn’t remember anything in the morning .

At that time I thought he just pretended to forget about it, but soon the next time he called me over it was the usual one-sided act .
Then I was made to cum countless times and wet the bed .

But sometimes he would become like that other day, I was fluctuated between joy and sorrow .

Sometimes he only treated me gently and since I came to like it, I put up an act of hating it and hid my feelings .

I’ve always want to fawn on him and have him spoil me, but I was scared that he would lose interests in me, so I acted frightened like it was my first time .

That’s why, on days like yesterday I would be spoiled by him, and I would warm him up .

Suzuka-chan was surprised about his condition yesterday and was worried about me, but me telling her to not enter the room was nothing other than my desire to monopolize him .

That condition of him is only for me to have, was what I thought .

I think some kind of deep wound in his heart brought him to that condition, but I also want to cure than some day .

Even when he’s sleeping he still doesn’t let go of me, then I also happily buried my face into his chest .