I can feel his face stiffening, quietly raising his tail.
I couldn't help noticing the table tapping with my fingers. He looks worried to anyone.
I thought it was okay to say it was normal, but I had to realize that the water had already spilled.
Even if he said it unconsciously, it would not be too much. I feel like I just put it in my mouth... I don't feel like I'm doing well.
‘Why.’
I wonder why.
‘I'm so happy. ’ Tra ns la t e d by Jpｍ tl .ｃ o m
Sometimes I felt like I was sinking down. In reality, it seemed to have been that way most of the time.
I feel like I'm left alone in an empty space. I feel like I can't breathe. I feel nauseous and dizzy. I feel like I'm falling constantly into deep sleep.
It was a sensation you couldn't feel here.
If you ask which way, it's better to say happy.
It was a place where I didn't have to blame myself, and I didn't have to take responsibility.
You don't have to pick up your sword or kill anyone.
It was with precious people, and it was a place where they could smile just by watching them live their lives. Tr a n s lated by Ｊpｍ t l .ｃo m
Kim Hyeon-seong was still not okay in the dream and in the ideals that had been drawn.
“W-we don't want to talk... ”
“Guild Master, are you all right? ”
“Yes, Hyejin. ”
“Hey, are you okay? You don't look so good. ”
“Yes... I'm... I'm fine. ”
“Are you sure you're okay? Pale complexion.... ”
“Yes. I'm... fine. It's sharp.”
Maybe it's because there's still a sense of humor.
Maybe it is. If not, it could be the guilt of running away.
‘But…. ’
They will say it is a reasonable judgment. The man in front of me might agree with my choice. Lee Yi-young was the one who was after Silly.
He probably knows better than anyone that his present self is useless.
‘I will. ’
T ransl a t ed by ｊp m tl.ｃ o m I'm sure she handles things better than the incompetent self. Like she said, Kim Hyun-seong was a failure. Define my life as one word and it will be a failure.
It won't be any different this time because I have done nothing and lost nothing. Even if it's a spiral, it'll only make things worse. If you make a mistake, you will lose again. As it has been so far.
“Well, I just told you, you don't have to keep it in mind. ”
“ ……. ”
“It's true.”
“ ……. ”
“ ……. ”
“Can I talk to you for a second? ”
“Yes?”
“I think we should talk for a while. ”
“But…. ”
“I don't think it's going to take that long... and others will understand. ”
I looked around a little and saw a nod.
“No, you don't have to. It's just unconscious... Today is a gathering day, and Ki-young will be busy. ”
“That's what I want to say. Let's go outside.”
First, I saw the body raising up to my eyesight. Tr an s l ated b y jpｍt l.c oｍ
When I woke up from my seat, I could see myself leaving the meeting place.
It is a different landscape from the continent. The neon sign is starting to light up, and I hear people talking.
I feel uncomfortable moving my feet. Even being among so many people doesn't make a strange adaptation.
I could see people touching their phones, walking along the road with friends and lovers, and drunk people, and I could see them spending their time in their own way.
And I can see him blending in between the crowds. I don't feel much like it. I've always thought about it, but it seems natural everywhere.
I wonder if I feel the same way. What do I look like now?
Looking at the side, I can see the reflection on the glass. It's more exotic than I had imagined. I realize that I don't fit in here with myself.
Even this place didn't match Kim Hyun-seong's, but I had to take a step.
Walking with Ki-young might feel a little mixed up. Probably no one else will.
“What do you think?”
“Yes?”
“This place. ”
“If you say this is... ”
“Earth. This is where we're walking. ”
Tran slat ed b y Ｊp ｍ t l .c o ｍ “ ……. ”
“Are you uncomfortable? ”
“No, it's not. ”
“Of course.”
“I think it's very comfortable. It's not a dangerous place compared to the continent, and there's not much to care about. At least it's less heavy than being there. ”
“If you say it looks less heavy. ”
“Ki-young. You don't have to keep that in mind. because it's unconscious all the time. ”
“I'm saying this because I know it's unconscious. I didn't think you were satisfied with your current reality... I thought there might be a different reason. Are you having a hard time adjusting? ”
I haven't thought about it. I've spent a lot of time here, but I've never felt anything else.
But it also feels that way. If you choose to adapt or not, you will be forced to put your hand on the former.
“I can understand. It must be hard living on Earth all of a sudden. because we've lived on that continent for a very long time. In the case of Mr. Hyunsung, he's been around longer than me, so there's a sense of confusion. ”
“ ……. ”
“I think you're feeling awkward that you don't fit in. ”
He's right.
“But it's not just Hyunsung. I think everybody feels that way. It's not easy to mix and mingle with people. You may have different sizes of luggage, but most people feel the same way. ”
“Yes... yes. ”
“I'm not telling you to hang in there, everyone's having a hard time. That's the point I want to make. I just wanted to say that realizing that there are a lot of people like me can help. People walking down the street, people with friends, all the same people. The people who are walking around with their phones, they're all like Hyunsung. ”
“ ……. ”
“They've never spoken to each other, but everyone here could be an understanding. If you think of them as the same people, that's going to be possible. It's not enough, but I think that's the first step. If that's not enough, let's think a little bit closer. ”
I can see him smiling.
“Our guild members who crossed the continent together, a little narrower, will be able to become our understanders. ”
The narrow-eyed, mouth-opening face flashes into view.
“Even narrower, I will be able to understand Hyunsung. ”
I think they're telling me to stop worrying or worrying.
“Ki-young also... ”
“I don't think there's anyone in the world who's not afraid of that. It looks like everybody's doing well, but maybe you've all thought about it. I'm no exception. ”
“Ah…. ”
“That's what I can tell you. I used to think that there were people who could understand me and help me. Of course, Hyunsung was also included in it. ”
“Yes?”
“We shared a lot and we shared a lot. I think... ”
“Oh, no. It's not wrong.It's not... wrong at all. ”
“Glad to hear it.”
I feel like the bugs that were eating my insides are disappearing quickly. The anxiety seems to disappear like snow melting and the chest that was beating rapidly seems to calm down slowly.
I'm smiling without knowing it. It was nothing, but it was more comforting and relaxing than any other word.
“Well, thank God for me. I really... I didn't think you'd think so... ”
It was immediately after the situation was reversed.
“How could you not think that? Of course, I fully understand Hyunsung and Hyunsung doesn't completely understand me.... ”
“ ……. ”
“We took each other's burdens. ”
“Ah…. ”
“Hyunsung shared my burden with me. ”
“Er... ”
“I thought Hyunsung would understand me. I thought you might be thinking the same thing. ”
“Er... Er... ”
“It's probably because I was carrying Hyunsung's burden with me before. although it wasn't enough, of course. ”
It was not insufficient. Never, ever felt inadequate.
“Ah... ah... ah... ”
“The reason I'm here now is because Hyunsung has always been my patron. ”
But I was never much of a supporter.
He took my burden with him, but I never took his.
Instead, I ran away.
Run away. He's here now.
“No... I... I... ”
My head is getting dizzy. Shortness of breath and difficulty breathing. Things around me don't really come to your attention. I can't even hear my voice. A fierce sense of self-agitation wraps around your body.
‘Scumbag. ’
“I…. ”
‘A selfish man. A selfish, self-absorbed man. ’
The face in front of my eyes seems to be speaking aloud.
‘I thought you would carry my burden with you. I thought you'd support me as much as I did carry your luggage with me. ’
“So.”
Tears are coming out of my eyes. I don't know where I am right now. As I turned my head in haste, I saw myself standing with a sword in my hand.
“What are you doing here? Kim Hyun-seong.”
Quickly turning his head to the other side, Kim Hyun-seong, 22, who was holding a corpse that could not recognize its shape, said.
“Are you running away again? I told you I wouldn't run. You promised you'd never run away or avoid it. You lost your brother and made that commitment. ”
You turn around, and the monster with the horn on its head is a horse.
“It's not you he's carrying, it's me. You're running away. I don't have the courage to do anything. I'm just running away. You selfish bastard. ”
‘No. I.... ’
“He sacrificed everything for you. I threw myself at you to carry your burden. Is that what this is about? You may look like me, but you must hate me. You don't deserve to be next to him. Rats like you deserve to rot in hell for the rest of their lives. ”
‘I didn't mean to. I didn't mean to. Because it's rational. I'm gonna ruin everything. It's gonna ruin everything. ’
“What did you do for him? What did you do for him while he was struggling with your back, you selfish piece of shit? ”
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