Watashi wa Teki ni Narimasen! - Chapter 27.1

Chapter 27.1

“But, it could really happen…”

I pleaded, but Alan’s expression would not change .

“You never did believe in the Eremia faith . When you were being brought over here, your prayers during meals were incredibly careless . You’ve never once talked about dreams or visions until now . You constantly avoid praying at church along with mother on holy days . And yet you would believe what you saw in a dream? As someone whose belief in the Eremia faith is as shallow as your own, I would definitely question it and consider it far from reality . I wouldn’t ever believe it and assume that actual danger could be upon us . ”

What he was saying was logical .

My usual attitude showed that my faith was weak at best . And the Margrave couple were not very devout either, it had even been a relief to me .

“In fact, it would be far more convincing for me, to think that you still have ties to Count Patorishiel . Then we could assume that you were only trying to spread fear among my father’s men . Now that has a smell or reality to it . ”

He was also right to be suspicious of me .

But he was wrong . I had fled from the queen, from Count Patorishel’s orders . I wanted him to believe that at least .

But how could I prove it, that I was not an enemy?

“Please, please believe me . ”

But I wasn’t smart enough, I couldn’t think of the right words .

There was nothing to do but to fall silent . Alan sighed .

“Even you know that there is little to discuss here . Kiara . Well, whatever the source of this information was, it does not change that it is unpleasant . I shall at least tell father what you have said…”

I gasped .

If he told him such a thing, surely he would no longer believe everything that I’ve said until now .

What Reggie had told him about Ruain’s movements, he would just think that I have been whispering strange things into his ear after becoming close with him .

Then Reggie would not be protected .

Even the Margrave, he would no longer be cautious . He would be killed .

I had no idea what I was supposed to do . I was overwhelmed with a desire to cry, and so I screamed .

“Because, because you wouldn’t believe it, would you!? That it was from a past life!”

“Past life?”

Alan’s face turned suspicious .

But Alan had already been suspicious of my words, to begin with . There was no harm in him thinking I was mad, any more than he already did . And so I would reveal it all .

“Yes, my past life! Before I was born, I had lived a completely different life! A game I played then, it had people with the same names and faces as in this world . And it’s all come back to me! If things continue like this, Everal castle will be taken by Ruain, the entire kingdom will be invaded! Even me, had I not escaped from the school, I would have been turned into a magician and worked for the queen . You and your men would have killed me on the battlefield!”

I spat it all out as if screaming . Alan’s face looked stunned .

“Well? Is that explanation not even more fantastical! You think I’m mad, don’t you!? That is why I did not want to tell you!”

I couldn’t bear to stay there any longer, and so I ran . With no certain destination, I flew down the tower steps . I would just search for a place where I could be alone .

But there would be sentries on the castle walls .

There were even guards on top of the towers . Of course, there were, there had to be . It was how they protected the surrounding territories .

After much searching, I finally sat down near a thicket close to a building right under the castle wall .

No one would come here at least, and so I sat, with my forehead pressed against my knees .

It was too late, and yet a wave of regret was washing over me .

Alan would find me even more suspicious than before . Would I have no choice but to leave this place? But if I did, I would be breaking my promise to Reggie .

Yet, even the Margrave would surely think I was a spy if he heard what Alan had to say .

He would probably write a letter to Reggie and explain why I had to be arrested, or he would have compassion and send me away .

Ultimately, while my attempts to direct Reggie’s attention toward Ruain’s movements, and to be cautious have been successful, he might begin to think they were groundless rumors . He might feel that there was no need to listen to them .

That would put Reggie and the others in so much danger .

“…Then I must…destroy it from within . ”

I would have to return to Count Patorishiel and marry the viscount with the resolve to throw away my own life . And then become a magician .

I could not continue to wait like this . The Princess of Thorns may have said it would be fine, but I feel it may be too late .

Without thinking, I grasp the stone that hung from my neck, through my clothes .

“Why wouldn’t the Princess of Thorns give me the answer?”

I wanted to know how to become a magician now . If I did, I would be able to use other methods to convince them . And even if they didn’t believe me, I could protect them at least…

And then I suddenly realized something .

“Huh?”

I look down at the stone in my hand .

There was no visible change there . But I could feel something as I held it with my eyes closed .

A wave that spread across my body . It spread out, on and on . And suddenly, I felt as if it had hit something on my left side .

“What…happened?”

It wasn’t visual, so it was difficult to describe, but it felt almost like I had a radar device in my brain . And whenever the waves that spread out got caught on something, I felt my heart move strongly .

Up until now, it had shown no changes and I had no idea how to use it . I could hardly believe it now, but maybe…

“Was this…magic?”