Chapter 7 - She didn't know the many words that could not be sent out.
There was snowfall in this town that day.
The same thing was said at that time.
How did I answer that?
It must be ah, ah, ah, ah, etc...
Complete sentences. Then just stammered like that, neither asking clear questions nor I answered casually, but hung up after talking about several contact items.
However, compared with that time, many things have changed.
The biting cold became refreshing like touching the face, and the fine snow falling from the sky became falling flowers dancing with the wind, the sound on the other end of the phone turned into a soft smile in front of my eyes.
Because of this, I should give a different and clear answer now.
I understand this.
However, I may be a little shaken because I was not mentally prepared before, and I could not say anything.
In the evening, a breeze with a hint of sea water passed between me and Yuigahama. I sucked air took a mouthful and finally opened my mouth. Maybe because my lips are very dry, I still need to open my mouth. However, there was probably a sigh in my voice.
"...Ah no, I won't go."
Trying to squeeze out the answer from the mouth with a vibrato, revealing my embarrassment. It obviously took a lot of time to say it, but it sounds like a fool. In order to make this embarrassment passed quickly, and I quickly spoke again.
"How do you say, it feels like this kind of thing is a little bit embarrassing..."
Hearing what I said, Yuigahama twisted her head.
"Why are you embarrassed?"
"Ah no,...it feels a little weird to say a date. Doesn't it?"
Right? Ok? Eh? Won't it? I felt a little uneasy and began to confirm to her wordlessly recognize.
Yuigahama tilted her head slightly, "Uh-", her gaze floated to the upper left, it seemed to be spent some time to think about something, and then re-carry the bag with a "hey" sound.
"Then, I just have to do it again."
"Eh.... What are you doing again..."
What do you want to do again? She casually coughed few time and fiddled with her bun. But what are you going to do again?
When I was stunned not knowing what to do, Yuigahama quickly turned around, step by step increasing the distance, suddenly stopped after a few steps, and turned to my side again. Then slowly waved to me and walked over again.
"Ah——, Hikki——, what a coincidence! Are you going back now? Shall we go back together?" She smiled happily as if the conversation just now didn't exist at all.
I just stood there unnaturally, just like the NG collection at the end of the Jackie Chan movie
(T/L I didn’t get this reference but if you please share it) , but Yuigahama herself agreed first and nodded in the same way.
"Look, it's okay this way—"
"Uh, uh..."
So subtle.... If she said that, the answer to "NO" just now is not good to say it again. I feel that occasionally meeting after school, and going back together is also usually possible.
Oh, how can I figure out this thing! way of expression? Is it a way of expression? Is it a matter of expression...? Changed resignation, or can it be said that it is okay if the form is changed...? Will the court be found not guilty? Different juries will make different verdicts? I want to wait for the judgment of the trial judge let's talk about it when it's reached. However, I do not have enough time to submit the case to the court.
"No..., um, well..., ah no..."
I still don't know whether to answer "yes" or "no", my mouth is like a knot. Seeing me like this, Yuigahama laughed out loud.
Eh..., why do you want to laugh...? I asked her with my eyes, Yuigahama shook her head and seems to say "It's okay." Then she seemed to be going to sort out the group that was blown by the breeze, gently combed her hair with fingertips, and smiled "hehe" at the same time.
"It feels like this kind of thing hasn't happened for a long time. We talking alone"
"Oh, oh... well,... the our classes are different."
As I said so, my eyes turned to the glass window of the school building. Imitating the shape of a ship a lot of glass is used in the school building, and now every piece is bathed in the sunset. Where in sight there should also be my classroom and Yuigahama's classroom. If the chance of meeting decreases, the opportunity to speak, Meetings will decrease accordingly, which is only natural.
However, it is very unnatural to use this as a reason.
Thinking about it this way, I also realized that it was just an excuse. As of today, Yuigahama and I always had opportunity to meet is always there. Joint prom, new semester, and new club that has started, we were all in the same place at those times after reorganizing my thinking, I clearly understand how useless I am.
Nothing happened.
I'm just playing tricks and making some misunderstandings, and I didn't just make a fool of myself.
I just didn't dare to look directly at the embarrassing and blunt part. Don't know what to do I didn’t know how to translate it into language. I’ve never tried it hard, just keeping it in back of my mind.
Perhaps, she has been doing the same thing in front of her.
Seeing that I don’t know what to say, Yuigahama squeezed the shoulder strap of the backpack and took a breath.
She smiled bitterly.
"Will you talk to her when you go back? There are some...things you want to discuss, right?"
Discuss, discuss.... No, um, it becomes normal if you say that, probably...
Although the relationship between me and her has indeed changed, but it is necessary to say that it would be unnatural to reset all the relationships. If you continue to get along as ordinary friends, two people it's okay to have a chance to talk alone.
Is it explaining to someone, or is it making excuses for myself, I came to this first conclusion. Then asked.
"Well, isn't it okay for two people to discuss it alone...?" "Hmm--" Yuigahama hesitated, probably taking as long as I did.
After thinking about it, she nodded seriously.
"What will you do, something not so good."
"Do you want to do something bad..."
I want to pat my forehead vigorously, but if I speak too perfunctorily, I will confuse the other person
It doesn't work if it gets muddled. Yuigahama's eyes fell on her feet, but her tone was serious.
"It’s discussing about Yukino, that, or... it’s about love, so I want to have a chat with you two. " "This, this..."
If it’s about Yukinoshita, she doesn’t have to say it, and it’s true if other people are present it's not easy to discuss.
However, I don’t get along well with Yuigahama alone. If you are learning it’s a normal thing in the school, but if the location is changed from here to other places, it looks like it's different. At least if I watched from the sidelines, I would definitely say "Hey, hey, that guy is dying. "
Should I notify Yukinoshita first? But what stand should I use to say, "I want to talk with Yuigahama personally" What about this? Obviously, it’s just a sentence, but specifically to say such a thing doesn’t it appear to be too self-conscious?
No matter how you think about it, it feels like "Who are you"? Isn't it disgusting? Carefully one would think, I'm such a disgusting guy... No one can look down on myself more than I do.
I repeatedly found excuses in my heart and kept worrying about it. Yuigahama chuckled suddenly
"...I have already talked to Yukino, so it's okay."
Those eyes seemed to see through my heart, very mature and soft, but it seemed there is also a hint of indifference. Watched by the red that reflects the setting sun, and also mixed with pink and light gray eyes
Then, my shoulders suddenly lost strength.
"Ah, so.... So..."
As a stupid answer for me, there is a bit of peace of mind and frustration in my voice and shame.
It turns out that Yukinoshita already knew... I shouldn't need to think about it so much. Right?.
But if I can accept it so easily, I’m afraid I won’t be there before so long. My personality hasn't been so good until I can safely let others make judgments.
"...Even so, it doesn't mean that I can hear her out of nowhere."
With a sigh, I said this while taking out my phone from my pocket. what--,
I feel so heavy... Thanks to this, I feel that my mobile phone is seven trillion times heavier than before.
"Can you wait a moment?"
I took out my phone and started to operate, and Yuigahama blinked, then she seemed a little bit puzzled.
"It can be..."
"Sorry."
I apologized briefly and squatted slowly against the fence.
What should I message next...? Speaking of which so far, Yukinoshita and I have not had any serious written communication, so now even if you want to contact her to say something, I’m afraid it is to no avail. It should take a lot of time just to consider what to send. Why do I even think about these unintended dialogues.
"If it's too short, isn't it a bit sloppy?" "She will feel annoyed if you tell her something like this right..." "Sending this kind of interrogative sentence feels like asking the other person to answer, not disgusting? ""Animation-related emoticons will be annoying, right?"I’m very upset.” This kind of thing, it turned out to be impossible to send out at all.
... I really want to chat on LINE with Zaimoku...
Seeing that I suddenly squatted down again, I held my head again and whispered "Ha~", Yuigahama all of a sudden laughed.
"Humph"
"Eh, what?"
I looked at Yuigahama who couldn't help but smile, and she just shook her head.
"Nothing. It's just a lot more serious than I thought, so I was a little surprised."
"Also...it can't be said to be serious."
Sighed with self-deprecation.
If you’re really serious, the atmosphere in the club shouldn’t be like that, and it’s not right now.
Will search the bowels and think about what reasons should be found. It’s just that I can finally admit that I am person who lacks sincerity and is a hypocrite.
Therefore, this unintelligible connection is just self-satisfaction.
Even so, I still impose this self-satisfaction on others. Even though it's just one way I'm willing, but if I can do it, I think I just need to impose on each other.
The problem is the practice.
Slowly type in word by word, but delete it again, I don’t know how times I repeated this process. The finger sliding on the screen has probably been reciprocating more than two hundred times, but no matter what
There is no way to come up with fluent sentences.
Eh..., what should I send...?
First is the seasonal greeting? It’s a business email like "Long-term support" Template term? No, no, I’ve known each other for so long, so I still say bluntly, "You Xin
It's bitter" Is this better? Just use the simpler "Thank you~"? Look like this it seemed to be saying "What is this person's name?"... It’s better to put it another way. it is good…….
As a result, I was still thinking about things like this, holding my head and facing blinking vertical line on the phone. Then suddenly a shadow fell on it.
Looking up, Yuigahama, who was standing next to me, bent down and peeked over, revealing as if it's a smile that laughs at people.
"What did you send to Yukino?"
"Hello? Yuigahama-san peek?"
I turned around to hide the phone, and Yuigahama also squatted down beside me.
"What's the matter, hehehe, let me rate you."
Yuigahama coughed, stroking the non-existent beard and straightened her chest. I putting a bitter lemon in my mouth said.
"No, no, don't do it."
Although I refused this way, Yuigahama held her arms on her own and started thinking.
"First of all, you can use LINE to talk normally? Just say like this, "Speaking of today, After studying, I went back together~" Isn’t that all right? "
"That's an afterthought..."
But now there is a feeling of reporting after the fact, and it is spent on wording and sentence making the longer the time, the stronger the feeling.
Debriefing, liaison, and negotiation should be done as soon as possible.
In this case, follow Yuigahama’s suggestion and start by sending LINE normally.
Right...
"Ah, I don't understand how to send text on LINE normally, what is normal..."
The question I asked was very similar to a philosophical question, and Yuigahama’s answer was a bit philosophical.
"Normal is... normal. Whatever you want to say or ask... Whatever you want speak it out, and then continue the conversation along the way, this is the feeling? "
"Isn't it super difficult..."
Although she seems to be very simple, what do people of my level want to know I would use Google to search first, and I would never think of asking other people specifically, and with my personality, I can't say anything I want to say.... I can’t do it if I turn to other topics later what? What should I do after asking what I want to know? Have been asking questions, could it be Akinator....
(Annotation: Akinator is a program that finally answers the user's pre-conceived character through continuous questioning)
I frowned, and Yuigahama frowned in embarrassment.
"You don't need to think about the complexity, you see, just send it to Komachi!"
Then she let out an "um", clenching her fists in front of her chest as if she was about to cheer someone up. although
Of course I am very grateful for your concern, but unfortunately, the way of dialogue between me and Komachi is totally unsuitable.
"When I send a message to Komachi, it’s just "Go back today" or "Don’t give make me cook" and the like....... The words showed that it was sent by Komachi, but she replied to me More. "
"Ahhh~"
Yuigahama let out a long sigh mixed with understanding and discouragement. I also silently agree nod.
"What about that? Business liaison? Isn't Hikki very good at this?"
Yuigahama slapped her hand and raised her fingers. The invisible electricity above my head made the light bulb lit up.
(Annotation: Refers to the common expressions in anime when coming up with ideas)
"Well, I'm quite good at... That means there is no other topic other than that.……"
However, that kind of statement is also not appropriate~....... Although it's a proud watch
Love, but there is absolutely no malice....But my conversation has always been like this. Even now I can talk to Yuigahama normally was because the situation was urgent and had to be dealt with as soon as possible. There are problems that need to be solved before I can as a starting point, think of a way to start the dialogue. If you think about it in this way, Yuigahama is not without reason. Rationale.
"Let me think about it for a moment..."
"Ok"
Yuigahama nodded her head vigorously, adjusted the hem of the skirt and squatted down. Also not suggesting anything, she just hughed her knees and start shaking her body back and forth, staring out dreamily. Occasionally passing cars. It seems to be willing to wait for me.
Although Yuigahama might not be able to see it, I moved my chin and spoke to her speechlessly. Then I stared at the phone again.
If you want to talk about the things that need to be resolved between me and Yukinoshita, it must be yesterday. There was no way to solve this problem in a normal way, but I thought about it in my own way. However, it’s not wise to bring a snack to someone else suddenly, someone who can do this kind of thing they are usually missionaries, election canvassers, or speculators. Anyway, because of this reason by making serious contact in advance and then visiting, the other party will also be wary of it. Speaking of It's that I should first make complete preparations, even to the point of fighting between heaven and earth.
(Translation and Annotation: "Demon Fight between Heaven and Earth" is the nirvana skill of the
Great Demon King Barn in "Dragon Quest: Dahl's Great Adventure". Here Both "Heaven and Earth Demon Fight" and "Preparation" have "construction" in Japanese.)
Therefore, the burden of avoiding direct and euphemistic expressions will be less. Mainly speaking of my mental burden.
In other words, hint.
After drawing the above conclusion, I typed a string of words on my phone.
After some time, I finally finished a decent text.
"Sorry for the sudden contact, do your parents eat sweets? I went home with Yuigahama It's time to talk about this.”
(T/L: If you can’t figure out why he asked Yukino if her parents like sweet is because in Volume 3 Komachi and 8man were planning on giving sweet snack box to her family as gift)
perfect……. I re-read this passage carefully, it can be said that there is nothing wrong with it.. Prompt in advance before buying a snack gift box, and then use this to naturally convey the status quo to each other.
When I was satisfied, there was a soft voice from the side soon.
"Haaa…"
"Eh"
Although there are only one words, this sentence is enough to make people discouraged. I looked at her. But our sights did not meet. Yuigahama looked coldly at my phone screen. "How do I put it...It feels very disgusting."
"Eh"
"What's this? It feels like an excuse that you came up with, it's really scary..." "Eh"
I was wondering if it was a bit cold, but she really couldn't stand it. She whispered I followed the sentence "I'm sorry," but it seemed to be serious. She should think although I saw something that I couldn't see, it would be even more embarrassing if I pretended not to see it.
After being said that, I would never want to send this kind of thing in the past. I deleted in frustration with these words, the phone screen suddenly returned to its initial blank state.
Um, well, yeah... After being reminded, I felt that the paragraph just now was really disgusting.
It's like being clever.
I turned my neck a few times, and felt that the previous one was really disgusting. So it might be business
The way of contact is more concise.
After reconsidering, I typed a simpler sentence.
"Yuigahama have something to talk about, so go out with her”
After removing the disguise, all that is left is a simple sentence. But precisely because only there are clear facts left, so there are no lies or fools. I did not hesitate to press the paper airplane logo.
(Annotation: LINE’s send button is in the shape of a paper airplane)
The sentence just now appeared in the green dialog box, and when I saw it sent, I let out a sigh of relief, I raised hmy head and looked to the sky.
"What did you post?"
I turned my head, Yuigahama held my leg and looked straight at me instead of the phone screen.
"That's... I want to talk to Yuigahama."
"Okay. This is the style of Hikki. Although I don't know."
Yuigahama nodded slightly and laughed. It’s different from just now, it’s a little warm the sound of. my style...probably so.
I looked at my mobile phone screen again, read what I sent out, and didn’t know how do I feel like having my own style. I feel that my style of writing articles will be more verbose and nonsense. Anyway, maybe I write to no avail. Sometimes it’s too simple, there are time it’s too complicated, in short, I just can't express the meaning accurately.
While thinking about this, I stared at the screen of the phone. Finally appeared next to the dialog box
The two small characters of "reading".
"Oh"
Inadvertently said aloud.
However, I waited for another minute or two, and the current time and the time of sending the letter were grew bit by bit.
The gap has been opened, but the picture has not changed.
Maybe I should add something after that sentence. I don't think much about this
Clear words, I don't know if Yukinoshita will reply.
Take Komachi and I as an example, for some unimportant things and things that don’t have to be said specifically.
Otherwise, it is okay not to reply. Maybe Yukinoshita is the same kind of person.
If I’m the only one, I can always wait for Yukinoshita’s reply, but now Yuigahama is also nearby, so it would be bad for her to wait. I used my eyes to ask Yuigahama if it was time to leave.
However, Yuigahama didn’t seem to be in a hurry, she just kept hugging her knees leisurely, looking towards the sky. I also raised my head, and I could see the fire clouds drifting slowly. Far east in the sky, Twilight spread out like thin ink, and the white crescent floated up. Nothing else.
It seems that Yuigahama is also waiting for Yukinoshita's reply.
"Speaking of it when did you started using LINE"
"Ah, that"
Maybe it was to prevent the waiting time from being too boring, Yuigahama opened her mouth. Her sight still ran towards the distance. And I also looked at the moon and I whispered. After I answered, I was patted on the shoulder several times.
Turning my head to take a look, Yuigahama took out the phone from her jacket pocket and handed it to me.
"Ok"
"Eh?"
What... I tilted my head a little, looked at the phone, and Yuigahama was frustrated with dissatisfaction, she continued to explain.
"So, add me."
"Oh, oh..."
I don’t know why you say "so"... how do you use the continuation what……. Thinking of this, I started to operate the phone and showed her the QR code. She is fast I finished the process of adding friends, and chanting "Hey" in my mouth, I sent a puppies barking.
The shouting emoji.
Yuigahama continued to hum and operate the phone.
"How about creating a service club group?"
"Okay...speaking of speaking, isn't there one now?"
I remember that Yuigahama created a trio of Yukoshita and Isshiki. When I said this, Yuigahama was stunned for a moment.
"Yes, yes... but that's only for girls, right?"
She explained nonchalantly. It sounds like "Girls have their own groups, is it’s justified?"
"Wait, will that lead to bullying? There will be no problem, right?"
"No problem, no problem!"
Yuigahama smiled happily and stretched out her hand to touch her bun.
"Eh-, is it really okay? Does that kind of girl group would say, "That guy today What a mess" or something? Would you post a screenshot of the chat with me and say, "This person what are you talking about so funny?" "
When I asked casually, Yuigahama looked away.
"..."
Silence.
Silent, silent. Accompanied by a serious expression.
Although I also know that Yuigahama occasionally shows a difficult side to deal with, but like today it was the first time that it was uncomfortable. It's terrible... I can't speak for a while. Yuigahama let a laugh with a “PUFF”. Then she continued to laugh softly and patted me on the shoulder.
"It’s a lie , kidding. We don’t do that on LINE ofcourse. "
So have you done it elsewhere, right? But because of fear, I couldn't ask. I laughed a few times, when the phone in my hand suddenly vibrated twice.
Quickly looking over, it is Yukinoshita's reply.
There are only two words on the screen.
"I understand"
This sentence is too simple, I will probably say other things later, I will continue to stare at the phone. However, even if I swipe the screen down, the phone did not vibrate again.
"Are you waiting for her reply?"
When Yuigahama tilted her head to ask, I nodded a little.
"Well, she said'understand'."
"that's all?" "Yup"
I looked at the phone screen again, and there was indeed no new dialog box. Then her reply that's it.
I frowned and stared at the phone, wondering what I should reply to her again. Yuigahama laughed "It feels like the two of you."
Well, if you want to say that, indeed.
I shrugged with a wry smile.
But Yuigahama had already told Yukinoshita about this in advance, I will contact or not contact, it may not make much difference. For Yukinoshita, she already knew that there is no need to add anything to me.
In that case, why does it take so much time to send these two words, but then read a sentense, it took me so long to just send a sentence, so I am not qualified to say anything to her. Hence it’s proved that I’ve been troubled for a long time, and the screen of the phone is now covered with fingerprints.
Yuigahama stood up suddenly and looked at me after finishing fixing her skirt. "Then, lets go."
"……Oh"
I looked at the phone screen again, there really was no other reply, so I used the sleeves of the school uniform to wiped the phone screen.
How much time did she spend in order to pronounce these two words.
No matter how much time is spent, how many words and sentences are thought up, and how much effort, I feel nothing
Is Conveyed.
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