Interlude: He didn't know the many entanglements before sending.
The bus moved slowly.
It’s been a while since got out of class, but it’s still a bit early for the end of the work,
For leaving school, it is a very delicate point in time. The passengers in the bus are very sparse.
It seems that most of the passengers who usually take this bus are students from our school.
But now that the peak time period has passed, there is an atmosphere of loneliness. Passengers sitting scattered every seat looks more deserted.
During the morning peak period, the load factor can be said to exceed 100%, which is very chaotic and noisy.
It's troublesome, but now it's so quiet as if it's a sin to cough. Bus stopped at the red light
At that time, looking at the scenery outside through the square window of the bus, it was like being in an art gallery.
However, the moment I drove into the shadow of the apartment, I just described the scenery of the sunset.
The painting has also become a gloomy portrait of a person. The character as its model is posing a gloomy watch
Feeling, my shoulders sank weakly.
The expression is very scary.
Seeing this scene, I couldn't help laughing, and the expression of the person in the painting was also distorted.
When I watched her leave after school, I wanted to smile more easily, but maybe at that time
Actually, my expression is almost the same as it is now.
It's better to say that my expression is already very gloomy.. You can understand when you see my sister who looks similar to me. It was originally broken with the kind of representative bad, hedonistic and decadent cheerful expressions are not similar things.
So, sure enough, the expression reflected on the glass is not produced by the appearance, but comes from my heart.
In other words, my anxiety.
There was both restlessness and relief, and my chest was full of jealousy and joy.
People are really contradictory... I shook my head slightly, and lifted the hair that fell to my face with my hand.
Inadvertently, my fingertips touched my cheeks, and I realized that my expression was not as stiff as before.
Putting my hand back on my lap, I gently stroked the hand she had held.
This is probably necessary for us.
On the day when the winter ended, a wall appeared between me and her. Maybe it's just me
It was made without authorization.
It’s like an invisible film, completely imperceptible to people, and it doesn’t exist.
What a sense of disobedience, but it does separate me from her. This makes us hesitate and stop each other
Touching, the words are stuck in the throat, and it is difficult to even look at each other.
But when she touched my hand, the wall was broken. She held her my hand carefully
Later, the warmth in her hands also passed.
After seeing her face to face again after a long time, she was really cute and affectionate.
From the bottom of my heart, I don't want to lose.
Because of this, we should find a suitable form for this new relationship.
The word "friend" is not enough to describe our current relationship.
Even better, contradictory, loving, conflicting, understanding, although now it’s distorted like it’s right away
It will collapse, but it will definitely not separate, it will be like a stone.
To reach that level, it will definitely take a lot of time.
For this reason, she, my friend, Yuigahama Yui took this step first.
So, I could watch her leave comfortably.
It is really happy, hearty, and can be said to be a straight smile. Really...really
It's...
The words in my heart began to break and eventually disappeared. The remaining language became a sigh.
After resting my head on the glass window, I sighed again, and mist instantly appeared on the glass window.
I have no regrets at all for supporting Yuigahama-san. Instead, because of this, it has been there before
The lump in the corner of my heart disappeared.
But the sigh will continue to the present, because of the uneasiness in my heart that still can't subside.
I didn't ask Yuigahama-san what exactly she wanted to say, and I didn't have the right to point fingers. And I have no way of knowing what he would think when he heard those words. Even if I know, I don’t know What should I do?
What are we, me?
The bus has passed one or two stops, and the downward sloping sunset is getting more and more away from the sea.
Far away, the bus gradually drove towards the night.
When I drive to the overpass that crosses the national highway, the engine noise suddenly becomes louder.
Also, I felt a vibration.
Lifting my head from the window, I slowly straightened up and took out the phone from the pocket of my jacket.
My eyes widened as soon as I turned on the screen.
Only one sentence was displayed on the communication software.
Seeing such an uninteresting and rhetorical sentence, I was taken aback for a moment. Maybe it should be said
I was shocked.
Obviously, there is no need to say it specifically.
I casually smiled bitterly and sighed.
Thinking of what I should reply, I started to move my fingers.
There are many types of emoji, and there are also many emoticons that have not been used. There were messages from yesterday, today I apologize for the bad atmosphere in the club, have a good conversation with Yuigahama-san and me, and I hope to listen carefully to what Yuigahama-san have to say. There is no need to worry about it today, and I will think about it later
Have a good conversation with you. Also...in order to make communication easier later, find something else
Topic... It's better to be a topic that interests him....
I thought about it carefully, and suddenly realized that I had typed almost forty lines.
I stared at the phone, carefully checked the passage just now, and couldn't help but tilt my head.
……Is it easier to read if you send it out several times?
No, it's not right. That's not it.
Although there is still a lot to say to him, he is now with Yuigahama. This would be embarrassing to send him such a long text.
Moreover, if these words are caught by Yuigahama-san, I am afraid I will be ashamed to want to face her tomorrow
Ask for leave and not going to school.
You have to be calm.
Don’t be too excited, don’t be too depressed, don’t be too tough, and don’t be too low.
I took a deep breath, calmed down and read it again. However, the more I read, the more I feel ashamed. No, this won’t work. If I was in my room now, I would have buried my face in pillow and roll around on bed.
I hit the delete button continuously and deleted all these words in one go.
To reorganize the most concise language.
"I see, don't worry about me"
That's it. I didn't have much confidence in this, so I checked it again.
...... Saying "I got it" still seems to give people a feeling of worry. It's just like condescendingly, it will make people think "Who are you?" I have to say this if I'm not very clear You will feel ashamed of it. Also, it’s kind of weird to say "Don’t care about me"...
Delete this too. Okay, delete it.
However, this way I have nothing to say.
First, write down what must be communicated to the other party. I sit back upright and straightened back.
I already know what he said.
Also accepted what she said.
If you just need to convey this.
"I understand"
Just two words. Just write these, and then press the send button.
In fact, there is more to say, and more to convey to him. But at one time it's impossible to pass it all to him.
So, start with these two words first.
Starting with just two words, increasing and accumulating bit by bit, one day it will be posted again
Send these two words.
So, start with these two words first.
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