Yahari Ore no Seishun Love Come wa Machigatte Iru - Volume 13 - Chapter 5.5

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Interlude 4

I pretend that I’m sleeping.

I hope the movie never ends, just as it is playing right now.

I’d be better if the end of the movie never comes.

I can clearly feel the body temperature on my face. It is a lot higher than I thought. I try to be mindful, not moving my body by even a single inch. The slightly hardened and straightened shoulder is bigger than I thought.

He moves only his other hand, with his fingers hitting the keyboard quietly. Sometimes after a while, I can hear that he briefly halts his work and makes a barely audible sigh.

He quietly brings up the blanket that only covered my knees, but then he suddenly stops as I feel a little itchy and make a sound. I try to cover that sound with my sleeping breath. He then pulls up another blanket of his own and covers my body all the way up to my shoulder.

The movie is about to end.

The lengthy credit keeps rolling and rolling in the end. That way, I have to keep pretending that I’m sleeping. Yet again, I’m making another lie.

I came all the way, until this moment, pretending that I didn’t see anything, pretending that I didn’t know anything, pretending that I didn’t understand anything.

Nevertheless, I actually know and have noticed everything - that doing things like this, that the conclusion has already been drawn, that the ending is already settled.

However, this is the only thing I can do. This is the only way that I can think of.

So that we can be together, owning the time that we spend together, cherishing the place that all three of us can stay. I believe I have tried to do everything that I can to make this happen.

I know it - that I’m cunning, that I’m making excuses, that I’m lying. I know all that.

But still, please let our time together go on, even if it’s really just a little longer.

I will make sure it ends properly.

I won’t make any other wishes, even if needed.

I will stop the tears that are about to pour out whenever, even if I don’t know exactly when they’d come out.

So please. Please give me a place to cry - a place where nobody can see.

So please. Please make the lies that I always tell to myself somehow become real.